Author: Anthony

I have lived, loved, lost, and learned many lessons in this lifetime. Let’s share that knowledge and follow to its fruition in stories, thoughts, essays, posts, and poetry.

She Wanted…

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She wanted to be pleased

So I obliged her.

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She wanted to feel safe

So I protected her.

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She wanted to feel love

So I loved her.

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She wanted to be taken

So I took her.

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She wanted to be excited

So I excited her.

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She wanted to be delighted.

So I delighted her.

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She wanted appreciation

So I appreciated her.

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She wanted to relaxation

So I relaxed her.

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She wanted to be desired

So I desired her.

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She wanted to be admired

So I admired her.

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She wanted peace

So I calmed her.

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She wanted to share vulnerability

So I trusted her.

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She wanted to be kissed

So I kissed her.

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She wanted to be missed

So I missed her.

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She wanted to belong

So I held her.

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She wanted to be strong

So I strengthened her.

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She wanted to be free

So I freed her…

-aaa

Not To Marry Anymore

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The brightness of my life

Gets dimmer with each wife.

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To maintain my Zen

I’ll never marry again.

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It’s ok I have learned a lot

I appreciate all that I’ve got.

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Thank you for reading this little ditty

As I live happiness instead of self-pity…

-aaa

Three Things Challenge # M701

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Three Things Challenge #M701 | pensitivity101

Today’s three things challenge our poem to include one more of the following words:

ASHEN
PALE
COLOURLESS

Death’s Ashen Face

Her face was colorless and pale.

Her skin, ashen and cool to the touch.

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She lay in the box her eyes were closed.

Her hands perfectly folded on her chest.

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Hands folded softly together as if in prayer.

They’d never move from that position.

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Her face and body were gauntly thin.

The disease that took her life took the rest of her long before.

She had been my favorite aunt, godmother, and most important person in my life.

Now, all that remained was an empty shell

Of the person I had known from birth to age 32.

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It wasn’t enough time not nearly enough.

And all I have now are memories.

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I have registered several angry complaints with Universe.

But alas, nothing has or will change, she’s gone.

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The funny thing about grief, it never ever ends.

You just integrate it into your everyday life.

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These nearly 20 years she’s been gone still hurt like it was yesterday.

Some of the best parts of my heart are and soul buried with her to this day…

-aaa

Pabst Smile

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Phil enjoys the taste of beer

So much, his mouth changed its veneer

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As the beer suds mellowed

All his teeth were yellowed

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Every morning, he gargles Pabst, I hear…

-aaa

Another Milestone?

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I must thank you all again!! I have the greatest readers and subscribers in the world. I just hit the 500 mark on subscribers/followers. This is day 65 of blogging in a row since I started.

I’ve been trying so hard to build up an audience and ultimately get published which is my dream. I thank you all for being part of that and for being so kind to me.

I hope you’ll be around as I continue to do my best to challenge myself and channel my creativity into something beautiful. Thank you all again. I love you all and thank you for reading.

-aaa ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Daily Question # 65

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What is the legacy you want to leave behind?

This is a good question and it’s one that I hope I can answer properly.

I’ve through an awful lot in this life. It’s been tough, it’s been crazy, there have been great moments and bad moments too.

If what I experienced in many hard lessons, can help others then it would be worth it and that would be a legacy I could leave.

Love, passion, hurt, pain, insanity, these emotions are like the food for my writing. They are the motivation. They are the inspiration.

This blog, my posts, and any future books I write, will be all my legacy. And hopefully will be a good legacy.

-aaa

BFF, BEF Or BFE

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You displace your anger and frustration all over me. Why? Does it make you feel better to kick me in the teeth.

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Apparently it does. Whatever eases you, my friend.

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We’ve known each other now for how long? Thirty-nine years and you never change.

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It’s always what you feel and what you know And anything falls outside of that bothers you, including me.

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So rather than let me be me it bothers you. So you have to cut me down and make me change into something to conform and contort into another shape.

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You label me a sheep among wolves. Do you really know me that well?

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I’ve opened up to you and told you more than I told almost anyone. And yet, you still hold me in such contempt.

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I think it would hurt me except, I just don’t fit into the mold that you want

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Yeah, you try to group me in with all these other morons. Because it makes it easier for you more palpable.

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You get me angry to get me to react. That’s totally gaslighting. Then you get on my case for being mad.

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I wonder if you even know that you’re doing it? I don’t think you do I think you do it unconsciously.

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Well, I’m sure after this exchange we won’t talk for weeks, or months, or ever. But I will never standby and let you trash me ever again…

-aaa

Daily Question # 64

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How do you feel about cold weather?

A slightly heavier me in January 2015, in the storm I’m talking about.

I’d like today’s question I think I prefer cooler seasons because I run kind of hot, but I do have a little story about a winter in Texas and how high to use my wits to avoid disaster.

Anybody who’s lived in north Texas knows the weather there can be quite schizophrenic. The few years I lived in Texas the weather was exceptionally insane, even in the winters.

In 2015 the winter in North Texas near Dallas (Irving) was pretty bad. At the time I was working in Farmers Branch off Midway (if anybody knows where that is). We had a pretty major snowstorm and got close to 8 inches of snow one Friday morning.

It’s not unheard of in Texas, but not terribly common for sure to get snow or ice (I guess I was lucky to get to witness both). They let us out of work early on account of the weather was pretty bad and my Jeep Cherokee had a bad heating core in it. so as a result, I had no heat and no way to defrost the snow and ice that was accumulating on my windshield.

I was on the turnpike and was so far getting along OK luckily, only a few miles from my exit when the car in front of me kicked up a puddle and the puddle hit my windshield and ice instantly. I could not see a thing out of my windshield at this point the windshield wipers were frozen. So I slow down, I didn’t hit the brakes and looked (as best I could) out the side window. I managed to do this for a mile and a half until I arrived at my exit and just as I was getting off the turnpike my windshield wipers became thawed. And they cleared the ice off the windshield and I was able to see again. I safely made it home and counted myself lucky.

Not long after the event, I did get my heating core replaced, but I ended up getting a new car at that point which wasn’t a bad idea as I think that Jeep Cherokee was possessed anyway….

-aaa

Journey of a Lifetime

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Winter is frigid

Winter is cold.

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Cold day in hell

Cold as ice.

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Ice cream sundae

Ice cream man.

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Man of the house

Man of war

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War what’s it good for

War games.

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Games a plenty

Games people play.

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Play the record

Play on words.

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Words of wisdom

Words can kill.

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Killer in you is the killer in me

Kill eye.

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Eye of the beholder

Eye of the tiger.

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Tiger eyes

Tiger lily.

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Lily livered

Lily White.

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White shoulders

White room.

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Room service

Room with a view.

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View to a kill

View from the window.

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Window washer

Window to my soul.

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Soul mate

Soul kitchen.

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Kitchen aid

Kitchen sink.

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Sink that put

Sink or swim.

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Swim in the main stream

Swim in the sea.

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Sea of Cortez

Sea of Joy.

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Joy ride

Joy to the world.

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World in my eyes

World without love.

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Love of a lifetime.

Love is a journey.

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Lifetime…

Journey…

-aaa

Trial By Fire

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Graduating in life

Can cut like a knife.

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The rights of passage

Are through our assuage.

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The world has turned

With each lesson learned.

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Rising up from the dirt

Evolving with

change and hurt.

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With all triumphs and falls

Remain true to you, through it all.

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Clean up the mess

Hope for the best

Moving on to the next test…

-aaa

Written for the word of the day challenge. Today’s word was graduate.

Graduate

Daily Question # 63

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Have you ever broken a bone?

I haven’t broken any bones that I know of. Let me further explain that. I am a klutz first class that second not third I went for the gusto with first class. The ground and I we have a very close personal relationship. I’ve taken so many spills and falls in my life. It’s not funny. Who am I kidding? It is funny. I’ve had some spectacular spill, sprained feet, and ankles numerous times and possibly broke one and never knew it. As a result, they hurt nowadays from time to time.

But I’ll tell you something I’m proud of, every time I took a spill I always stuck my crash landing. 🤣

-aaa

Word of The Day “Neglected”

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Neglected

Four Quatrains of Neglect

Oppressed husband and cruel life – Steemit

I felt quite neglected

It’s just that simple

Didn’t receive love as expected

Instead of a wave, a ripple

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I adored you every day

And do many little things

That’s why I feel dismay

That inequality brings

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I told you truth

And dealt with your vice

You were always were uncouth

With your pack of lies

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As I pay this final alimony

It hurts me like a knife

A manipulating phony

And never quite a wife…

-aaa

Quick Note Regarding Comments Stuck In Word Press Purgatory Hell

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Some of you might be seeing a lot of responses from yours truly, to comments over the past 5 weeks or so. This is happened for some reason your comments got stuck in Word Press comment purgatory for lack of a better word.

I want to make sure I always try to reply and thank everybody because you all took the time to write something, and I want to make sure I reply as well.

For some reason, some got flagged as spam and some got flagged as pending, so I went in and responded to them and made sure that they got through. So if any of you are noticing and thinking “wow I said this a long time ago and now you’re responding” that is why.

Thank you all again for your positive words and reflections and sharing your emotional responses to my writing. It’s truly a writer’s ‘life blood’ and I thank you for reading.

P.S. you may want to check the comment settings in your own and Jetpack client or whatever you’re using for blogging and you may find a bunch of comments in there you didn’t realize you received.

-aaa

PAA Public Author’s Announcement From a Green Blogger

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A little tip for blogging that I just learned today, if somebody if anybody makes condescending inflammatory judgments about your character based on your writing, thank them. Don’t respond don’t react don’t argue just thank them. 😊

Now I’m a bit new and green on the blogging front so at first I did give into the comment that was made, and I responded and defended myself vehemently and then the person responded again with even more inflammatory comments. I realized this was all a game. I chose not to play. I went back to edit my original response and thanked them. 😊

They’re gonna be trolls out there and you just have to let them say what they wanna say. They don’t define you you do they don’t define your writing you do and they certainly haven’t lived in your shoes and you remember that consider the source… 😊

Any response to your poetry or your stories or essays is a good response. The goal of the writer is to emote emotion to the reader. It could be agreement with what we’re writing or could be harsh judgment on the writer. It doesn’t matter just don’t react just them. Thank them for taking the time to write any response. 😊

Thank you for reading and putting up with my soapbox rant. Please return to your regularly scheduled programmes… 😊

-aaa

Daily Question # 62

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How do you balance work and home life?

This is actually a pretty good question. At least this one doesn’t sound like a marketing research question, lol, but you never know. 🙄

It’s quite easy for me to balance home and work life as I live alone and I work from home. By day, I’m a tech writer for the gas company. By night, I’m a blogger that’s the challenge.

It’s like working two jobs, having two muses, and trying to keep them both happy and still have a life in between it all.

I just find that I’m pretty much constantly writing all the time right now. I’m approaching new poetic styles and forms on here challenging myself every day. And I’m also working at my tech job gathering requirements for information systems we’re replacing using all of my information technology experience from the past 28 years.

In between everything I clean I cook I keep my apartment immaculate because I see it is an extension of myself. This falls under self-care we all need to not forget self-care, no matter how busy we are with our writing, our efforts, our jobs.

The only time I really relax and rest is on the weekends and even then if I get a lot of ideas, I’ll do a lot of writing still. 

Truly challenging all of it and I like it. I like having to push myself and my creativity as far as I can.

Each day, a new challenge, but I like it. And I hope I do all my muses justice…

-aaa

Deadly Blue Eyes

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I’ll tell you a story of Dottie McGill

She was born out of tough circumstances

Now she fights off, a desire to kill

We know not why of her mad desires

Is it her madness or just shear will

A look of blood in her cold blue eyes

Gives my heart an arctic chill

Loving her, is taking great chances

I wonder if anyone will swallow that pill?

-aaa

I’m Gone

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Use me

abuse me

and you’ll lose me

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Flake me

Fake me

And you’ll mistake me

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Hurt me

Shirk me

And I’ll dessert thee

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Push me

Prod me

And flog me.

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I thought you were the one

Instead you used me for fun

And now I’m done…

-aaa

Toupee Away!

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There once was a woman from Spaulding

Who’s husband was rapidly balding

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So she bought him a cheap wig

Slapping lipstick on a pig.

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Though his appearance is still quite appalling…

-aaa

Daily Question # 61

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What sacrifices have you made in life?

What sacrifices have I made in life?

Well, there are sacrifices that are worth it and there are ones that are foolish. Honestly, I think the return you get on your sacrifice, will determine whether it was worth it or not. For instance, sacrificing your time, money and health for someone you loved that doesn’t love you back isn’t worth it. This is a very hard lesson that I have had to spend about 30 years with three women learning. And as I am divorced yet again I’m learning it again.

Sacrificing who you are and what you like in exchange to be more accessible to other people isn’t worth it. You need to attract people that resonate at the same frequency that you do. That like the same things that you do, and that are worth all that you are willing to sacrifice for them.

Sacrificing your passions in exchange for a paycheck or an income or financial security truly isn’t worth it either. You need to find a career that is aligned with what you love to do and your passion I don’t care what it is too many of us have compromised what we truly love to do in exchange for monetary security. I’m now doing what I love and I’m making the most money I’ve ever made and it’s very fulfilling and satisfying to do that every day. And writing every day is truly bliss. I regret not doing this from the get-go.

I’ve learned these things The Hard Way, the hardest way of all. I’m 52 years old now, I’m not young anymore. I know I’m not old or ancient, but I gave up a lot for people that didn’t give a solitary care about me and that was because I didn’t love myself.

I had to learn the hard way that everything starts and ends with us so you need to love yourself and create boundaries and know you’re worth or your sacrifices in life will all be waste. And all you’ll have for all those years and difficulty is a bunch of bills and lessons to teach to people so they don’t make your mistakes in life. And also, you won’t be sitting there with your head between your hands, in, wondering what happened and how it all went by so fast.

Know you’re worth before you make any sacrifices for other people in this life. Because, many people aren’t worth your talents, your love, your money, or most of all your time…

-aaa

No Happy Endings Aka The Leftovers

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For some of us, there are no happy endings

No twenty year anniversaries to celebrate

Instead, divorces with alimonies pending

Leaves us remaining of in a frazzled state.

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Some were high school sweethearts

Or college friends from long ago

Many of which lead to two happy hearts

While the rest of us are just status quo.

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What did we do that was so wrong?

To end up with such gruesome loves

I guess we sang to a different song

With circling vultures instead of doves.

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We try our best to not have envy

Watching you all celebrate

Hold it together as best we can be

Looking only to ourselves, to appreciate.

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A pure love that we all read about

That is what your lives have shown

Selflessness and sacrifice in large amount

Those things, from others, we’ve never known.

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So please remember us, solitary souls

As your anniversary years accrue

As we’re finding all the answers alone

Remember, you’re lucky, that someone truly loves you…

-AAA 05/17/2024

Taking on today’s Word of the day which is  “Cheat”

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https://wordofthedaychallenge.wordpress.com/2024/05/16/cheat/

IF I EVER THOUGHT THEY YOU’D CHEAT

If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I never would’ve loved you.

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If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I’d’ve known I was miles above you.

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If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I never would’ve proposed to you.

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If I’d ever thought you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t have given the most to you.

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If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t’ve given flowers to you.

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If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t have given hours to you .

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If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t have given my soul to you.

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If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t have given control to you.

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If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t have given my heart to you.

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If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t even start with you.

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If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t have married you.

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If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t have carried you.

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If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t have fought for you.

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If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t’ve spent or bought for you.

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If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t of been a friend to you.

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If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I’d sooner end it with you.

-AAA 05/17/2024

Thirty Thousand Word Press Views

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The Writer 😊

What does it feel like?

Getting 30,000 views?

In just 60 days?

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It feels amazing.

Like I am walking on air.

Never touching ground.

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Or I’m floating high.

Propelled by all of my dreams.

And all my desires…

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All at the same time.

I wonder what will be next?

I guess we will see…

-aaa ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Subscribers

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Thank you for getting me to 30,000+ ❤️❤️❤️

S uperlative

U underappreciated

B eyond amazing

S ensational

C reative

R eaders and Writers

I nnovators themselves

B usy submitting their own exhibits

E ngaging in fantastic feedback

R eal people all over the world

S ounding boards for everything I create…

-aaa

Over the Moon and Appreciative of all of you 

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60 Days Elapsed

If anybody would tell me when I started my block 60 days ago, that on the 60th day even before the day was over, I would have 30,000 views, 8700 visitors, 19,200 likes, and 844 comments including mine. I’d say that they were smoking something funny. But alas my friends it’s happened!!!! I still can’t believe it. I’m speechless right now…

I am thankful to all of you, my subscribers, anyone that “likes” my writings and share their comments, and constructive information on what they feel about my writing you’re all been invaluable and this wouldn’t have happened couldn’t of happened without you.

I also want to think the real heavy hitters out there that have thousands of subscribers hopefully someday maybe someday I’ll get there. Thank you for sharing and relogging my writing, and sharing comments about how it made you feel because that is what an author just needs. It’s like our life blood. 

And for all of you and your generosity, I have two poems for all of you coming up for my subscribers, and positive readers out there.

I’m just getting started and I hope I can continue to write good material that moves you enough to say something about it or to like it or to share it and I’ll be reading all of your work too. I’m very lucky to be around so many mentors in fact, you’re all pretty much mentors to me. 

Thank you all again and I love you all, and thank you for reading and bearing with my run-on sentences in this post (not the greatest example for a masters of English graduate writer but I’ll do better next time 🤣🤣🤣🤣).

-aaa (Anthony Andrew Aquino Jr) ❤️❤️❤️

Frankensteina

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Short tempered teacher sits at her loom

Creating a dark aura of gloom.

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Her students remained frightened

Since her bolts need to be tightened.

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So the classroom is filled with such doom.

-aaa