Category: poetry

E-Dating Disaster

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Not quite here or there

Not quite anywhere

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Different than most of the guys

Wishing one was easier on the eyes

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Moulded out of a cast thrown away

Feeling more and more like it every day

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Looking for Yang to the yin in the stars

Always coming up short as who we are

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Dozens of girls chats and dates

Always leaving with empty plates

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Excuses fakes and stories abound

Can an honest woman be found?

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Eharmony and Yahoo dating too

Is anyone real looking for you?

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Cook, pay, wine and dine as we meet

Yet finding a match is more like a fete

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Frustrations abound eyes water and sog

Maybe just give up and get a dog

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Most men on these sites just want sex

Leaving dating potentials emotional wrecks

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Looking for a ‘hookup’ is all they want

A roll in the hay and sexual jaunt

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So not only just chew the fat

But also prove to be better than that

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With weary hand to wetted eye

Hands to face the frustrated cry

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It shouldn’t have to be this hard

Finding love with them on guard

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But until remain like a frustrated muggle

In a world of magicians, a constant struggle

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Rebuilding

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From the deepest depths of my soul there is a single small light.

This is the beginning, a long road to make it grow from an ember to a fierce blaze.

Tread lightly and cry as much as you can.

Your heart is rebooting, bare with the pain the burning and the radiating tingles.

I swear it’s going to be better than alright faster than you think.

You face your pain you invite it you bask as swim in it.

This processes and heals you and fast it’s just very hard and very intense.

You’re doing it, I don’t know but this is a rebirth. Hang on and keep going!

-aaa

Outfinity

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Alone in the universe.

Starlight has gone out.

Coldness grips at the soul.

Aimlessly floating, going nowhere.

All heavenly bodies disappear.

No moons no comets, all is still.

Silence extends a cold hand concealed by darkness.

Tears drift into the expanse.

Gentle water sprays in all directions.

Cry’s sighs silenced by the vacuum of space.

-aaa

You Got This

Anthony10 Comments

Hug yourself super tight

Everything will be alright

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Feel the warmth inside

Love yourself with pride

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It’s not so bad to be alone

Deep inside your always home

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Do all things that feel right

That you love day and night

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Always embrace your inner weird

Its where your efforts should be geared

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Who cares what other people say?

You’re still you at the end of the day

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Take my advice and follow it well

Or else your life will be a hell

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Even if you’re alone, be what you feel

Eventually, all will know that you’re real

And then you can finally heal…

-aaa

100 Ghosts

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Art by Melissa Daugherty
https://www.deviantart.com/madartwork42

100 ghosts are haunting me

Not fifty, seventy-five, thirty, or three.

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Each one takes up its own space

With different expressions upon their face

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A snarky smirk or frown for a while

A look of anger or crooked smile

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Why are they here what do they want

Can’t they find another to haunt

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I’d ask them all but they don’t say

Why they never go away

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I should hire a medium to take a look

Or tell me why they continue to spook

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But the spiritual world is a closed book

And as a mortal I’m afraid to look

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So I found my answer in the end

Rather than fight them, embrace them friends

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As my logical conclusion is here

The ghosts all start to disappear

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First smirky, fearful, then happy and mad

Next nervous, thoughtful, then silly and sad

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Each ghostly apparition leaves

Taking along their gown and sleeves

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As they’re gone I realize the key

Each of the ghosts was an aspect of me

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Emotions can be scary but never fear

There’s a hundred feelings for everyone here.

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So next time when adversity has you thrown

Think of those chalky friends and you won’t be alone.

-aaa

UNCERTAINTY

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U nable to be your true self

N ot able to focus on what is important

C annot find solid grounding on which to stand

E rosion of your self confidence

R ealization that you are vulnerable

T rying to regain composure

A ll things you do are that much harder

I nability to make decision due to distraction

N otice the world around you seeming to slow down

T antalizing contentment seems miles away

Y ou will get through this and find peace….eventually

-aaa

So You Don’t Have a Valentine?

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For the singles out there (composed 2/14/2023)… ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Here’s to those that don’t have lovers

No one to cuddle with under the covers

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Those of us without a plus one

Can still have a lot of fun

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Don’t frown, sigh, and feel left out

That’s not what today is at all about

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Hug yourself real tight today

Don’t let your thoughts run astray

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Be good to you and your soul

Breathe in deeply and feel control

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Being the best you’ve ever been

A fully concentrated Zen

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Having a huge heart and much to give

And lot more of your life to live

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Look deep inside, smile and be free

I know that you’ll like what you see

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Always great and quite amazing

Set your tone and trails a blazing

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Happy Valentines Day, on your own,

and maybe next year, not alone 😉

-aaa

Goodbye, Green Eyed Girlie

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Where did you go? Where have you gone

There’s been time between to reflect on

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It’s been nearly 18 years since we dated

Though our love was destined ill fated

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Though I never forgot you even in the end

And I hope you still saw me as a friend

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Loss is hard especially with love

Saying goodbyes with a violent shove

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You lost your love and then yourself

Stagnating away on a dusty shelf

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Wishing relief could’ve been given

So that you could restart happily living

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Your large heart and ability to care

Were your lifetime cross to bear

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Your star was dimmed way to soon

With eternity now your only boon

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I hope pray each night and day

A new unity with all taken away

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Please forgive me I implore

For closing off my apartment door

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Protecting boundaries is nothing to boast

Slamming my door when you needed me most

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Now you are energy in its purest form

Traveling faster than light is your norm

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Reunited with parents and lover

New infinities to discover

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I look back on the time we spent

And remember and smile for what it meant

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Stunning Green eyes and a warm fair face

Often brought me smiles and grace

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Wondershozen and the Simpsons we shared

And I’m certain that you really cared

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I truly wanted to bring you peace

To bring your painful life at ease

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You are free now my friend

And your joys will never end

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Goodbye adieu a fond farewell

A highlight in my life and I wish you well

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More lessons in life to portend

A long peaceful rest my friend…

-aaa

Gaslight (Ex) Wife

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I know it’s up but you say it’s down

Desired respect but treated as a clown

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Right I swear but you say left

Peace of mind that is your theft

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Saying it’s inside when I knew it was out

Exasperate me to a scream and shout

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Feel it Cold when it’s clearly hot

Giving away the love I never got

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Insisting night while the sun says it’s day

Running crazy circles with games you play

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Proclaim it near when it’s rather far

Smashing sanity without leaving a scar

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Misdirection has me befuddled and mad

Kick up those high heels with fun to be had

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With her tones and a hurtful word

I Fall prey to pageantry of absurd

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My temper rises and I feel hurt

And it’s time for her dessert

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Calmly asking why I’m upset

Patronizing as she can get

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Criticizing my tone which rises fast

Wondering how long this hurt will last

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I turn around and walk away

A parting shot she would say

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Getting away is what my goal was about

Then above a whisper, “Go ahead and pout”

-aaa 🔥

The End of the Beginning

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You put in your best and it didn’t work out

That’s what life can be about

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Loved very hard but you lost

Pondering if was worth cost

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The Love you gave, and all its good

Didn’t turn out the way it should

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Sleepless nights and endless tears

Trying to allay your deepest fears

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Wondering what tomorrow brings

The iciest winter or warmest of springs

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Look deep inside for signs of hope

On how to deal or how to cope

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Then there it is a small sign at first

A hint of confidence then a burst

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Remember who you used to be

Before your lesson’s history

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Finding glimmers of light inside your soul

That flourished before you lost your goal

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Buried away at every measure

About to recover the greatest treasure

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Creative weirdness, music, and art

All your essence from the very start

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Concerts friends and moments of peace

Bring what was chaos back to ease

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Now you’re fully you my friend

And all your pain will come to an end

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Always hit the gym and hit it hard

Venture outside your own backyard

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Embrace change from all directions

And enjoy new found introspections

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Don’t stress twisted time and endless sands

Your life is where it belongs, in your own hands

-aaa

Words, They Protect Us All

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Words are our defense.

To cruelties of a cold world.

Countering the bad.

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Providing a shield.

To the harsh realities.

We all must deal with.

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New words every day.

Arise through inspirations.

Through experience.

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Many lessons learned.

Through the mistakes of our pasts.

Reap many rewards.

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They’re a catalyst.

For the words that preserve us.

A creative shield.

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That blocks future pain.

Blotting out all the darkness.

And giving us, light.

-aaa

Self Synchrony

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I sing my own song.

I admit it when I’m wrong.

Know where I belong.

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I play my own tune.

Not with a flute or bassoon.

But drums to the moon

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I know who I am.

And Never seize up or clam.

Always be a man

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Fear nothing that’s lived.

Life will flow freely as sieved.

If you just forgive.

Then you’d truly live.

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Now’s the time my friend.

For this exercise will end.

Gentle peace portend…

-aaa

eriF

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We have fire imparted in the depths of our soul that refuses to go out.

Powerful and persistent it’s fed by our hearts and unique love that shaped us.

Its presence leaves us with a soft blanket of reassurance like a mother’s hug.

The drive we have when facing the utmost of challenges comes from there.

That last ounce of energy we beg for to defy the impossible comes from there.

Moments where we are stretched to the edge of our frail minds and bodies it’s there.

The sadness when our hearts break and throughout our rebuilds, it’s there.

All triumphs and tragedies it shares the heaviest burdens never fading out for even a moment.

Sparking the best in us and pushing us to want better for ourselves and those around us.

Share that fire, spark the flame in others and watch their eyes change forever.

Know you’re miniaturized starlight never dimming despite the darkness.

No matter the lesson, look inside, and see the burning flame beckoning you onward forward…

-aaa

Actualization

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Self can only be achieved by acceptance

Acceptance can only be achieved through peace

Peace can only achieved through love

Love can only be achieved through trust

Trust can only be achieved through honesty

Honesty can only be achieved through bravery

Bravery can only be achieved through knowing

Knowing can only be achieved through knowledge

Knowledge can not not be achieved through mistakes

Mistakes can only be achieved through learning

Learning can only be achieved through bettering

Bettering can only be through improvement

Improvement never ends until we do and even then it continues on…

-aaa

Empathy

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Feeling is the only way to live

Denying pain builds up a flooding dam

Until we all scream at once

Inside deep where it cannot be heard

Vulnerability is strength not weakness

We are never really alone

Every living thing is connected

Life force unified with a golden thread

Everything in view passes through the heart

Purity encompasses all emotion

Warmth staves off the coldness of fear…

-aaa

PEACEFUL HAPPINESS (After the Divorce)

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(2/10/22 – 11-10-22)

*Lying still in silent embracing of thought

*Warm notions gently wash over a weary mind

*Kindness fills up until bubbling over

*Sadness, gone and not chosen

*Solely, the greatest remain

*Warming heart beats, and loves with passion

*Strong/seasoned with extensive use

*Wisdom comes forward replacing pain

*Compassion is present replacing hate

*Patience and forgiveness applied in abundance quietly inside

*Grace filled will all the love that it can hold

*This is living, now, eyes closed drifting blissfully…

-aaa 😊

I

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I stand alone

And I stand strongly.

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I embrace change alone

And enjoy each new challenge and growth.

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I live alone

And I live happily.

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I pray alone

And pray for all around me.

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I think alone

And my thoughts are of beauty.

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I cook alone

And the food is amazing.

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I love alone

And have strong self love and love of friends and family.

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I write alone

And pour my heart out in words.

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I watch alone

And the world is an amazing place.

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I laugh alone

At my silly self all the time.

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I sleep alone

And look forward to vivid dreams.

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I listen alone

And the music and playlists never end.

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I walk alone

And explore the surroundings.

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I work alone

And love working from home.

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I blog alone

And grow and publish more each day.

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I am happy alone

Embracing each new day and what might unfold.

-aaa

Symbiotic Adoration

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Mighty Sarafiona approached the crowd

Of many anxious awaiting fans

Prepared to give her their laude

Among a multitude of esteemed courtesans

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She steps up to the podium

Placing hands upon a microphone

Scanning a prepared speech for idioms

Just her before them all alone

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A silent pause before she speaks

The crowd anticipates and quiets down

Some camped outside of here for weeks

For privilege of hearing the lady in the gown

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Her throat is cleared and she’s ready to go

Deafening silence greets her first word

After it the rest all flow

Sounding anything but absurd.

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Cheers and applause

Greet her with explosive bursts

Each time she takes a pause

From pages of her prepared words

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They have such adoration for her

Hanging on each syllable spoken

The moments pass by with dizzying whir

With their synergy never broken.

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The end has come her speech complete

Tears and cheers from everyone

Standing tall all in the street

Her grandiose statement all now done…

-aaa

Silent Revelations

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Quietly sit down .

Just close your eyes and listen.

You can just hear it .

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Between here and there .

The softest sound in nothing.

It whispers to you .

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What does it say?

Some kind of revelation?

Or it’s THE ANSWER?

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One you need to hear.

Reassurance on changes.

You made in your life.

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Make a better you.

The best you right here right now.

So pay attention!

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Don’t miss the soft voice.

Calling you back to yourself.

That is your guide.

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To a better life.

Filled with love and fulfillment.

And much happiness…

-aaa

Day’s End

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Light softly dances.

From wall to wall beside me.

As the daylight fades.

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Night will arrive soon.

Its promise delivered now.

With oranges and reds.

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Crickets chirp their song.

Softly as a breeze beckons.

Soft tendrils hold me.

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The first stars appear.

As light blues fade to dark ones.

Embrace the darkness.

-aaa 🌆

HAVE

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Have a plan, carry it out.

Have I idea, make it happen.

Have a passion, fulfill it.

Have a desire, bring it to fruition.

Have a poem, emotionally charge its words.

Have an analogy, make it like no other.

Have a goal, exceed it every time.

Have a want, see it happen first.

Have a notion, follow your instincts.

Have a love, treat it like the diamond it is.

Have a mother, love her and her lessons of love.

Have a backup plan, and never get caught unawares.

Have a father, follow his lead and example with respect.

Have an understanding, feed it with knowledge.

Have a history, fill it with experience and perspective.

Have a sister, protect her and support her.

Have a brother, share in his trials and tribulations.

Have a godmother, never let her go she will show you heaven.

Have a life, maintain it with good habits.

Have a body, treat it like a temple lest it fails.

Have a heart, always follow and feed it.

Have a feeling, recognize its source and significance.

Have a hunger, always feed it properly.

Have it all, your persistence will pay off in the end.

-aaa

Writers Bloque

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Don’t worry the words will come

Keep writing them all down

Using all fingers and thumbs

This isn’t your first go around.

🤯

Exercises and brainstorms

Still, they do not come

Stretching your brain clear it of worms

You’re still brilliant, not dumb.

🤯

Yet the paper is empty devoid of prose

Lonely and sad and without content

The right thoughts are just under your nose

Yeah, each one is crooked and bent.

🤯

The hours get later and later

And still, nothing arrives

Your frustration leaves a deeper crater

But your perseverance survives.

🤯

Now a mere trickle

Things start to come together

The block and mental pickle

Hopefully gone forever.

🤯

Your work is nearly complete

You never thought it would arrive

Writers block is never discreet

As some works, never survive.

🤯

The end at last, the time is now

You’re written work is finished

And You make a silent vow

Thank God your talent has not diminished…

-aaa

Divine Timing Love Happens (Just not Right Away for Some)

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One day we’ll grow old together

Put our pieces each in place

Share many years through all weather

And each the wrinkles on our face

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Finding adventure each unfurled

Dancing to our very own beat

Many travels all over the world

Excitement lies before our feet

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No matter the time your eyes are the same

Your smile hasn’t changed at all

I’m smitten that is to blame

And every day in love I fall

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I manifest your existence

Each night in my dreams

My true love persistence

Is more than it seems

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One day our story will come to be

And we’ll be the envy of others

A new standard for all to see

When our dream life uncovers

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Holding hands on porch swing

Watching the evening pass

Fly high on passion’s wing

With many great times to amass

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We’re never too old to find a love of our lives

I’m 52 and I’m well on my way

Despite my two and a half ex wives

All my lessons learned and used here today

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Synchronies daily often appear

11:11, 1:11, 3:33, and 2:22

All conformation a great future is near

And these numbers portend, well, you

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When this happens, brightly clear

A divinely timed union we’ll be

As it happens I’ll blog it right here

Giving hope for all the world to see…

-aaa

Thank You

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Thank you for teaching me what love is not

Thank you for poisoning my every thought

Thank you for continuously using me

Thank you for emotionally abusing me

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Thank you for not being generous to me

Thank you for taking advantage of all that you’d see

Thank you for mental slaps with a white glove

Thank you for teaching me I had unconditional love

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Thank you for showing me all your hate

Thank you for showing me my own strength and faith

Thank you for doubting my every word

Thank you for demonstrating to me the absurd

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Thank you for weaponizing love and sex

Thank you for empty accounts and bouncing checks

Thank you for the emasculations you gave

Thank you for the respect you’d never save

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Thank you for not being in my life

Thank you for no longer being my wife

Thank you for the dog and pony

And thank you for that alimony…

-aaa

ANXI

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Imagery by Melissa Daugherty
https://www.deviantart.com/madartwork42

Clutching you when you least expect

Coldness like a Zombie’s hand

Little to do or even protect

Fear waves its toxic wand.

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Heart is racing beating faster

You take deep breaths to try and cope

Your body turns to rigid, skin alabaster

As you grasp at slipping notions of hope.

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It’s taken you now you’re frozen in place

Triggered and frayed like a live wire

A icy gaunt look on your face

You suffer deep in anxiety’s ire.

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Its Crippling debilitating

And takes a big toll on

Endlessly contemplating

Until happiness is gone.

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Many a victim doth it take

Chaining them to over thought

Trying to avoid a break

From a disaster that may be wrought.

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Stand in strength and hold on fast

Strength inside far more than you know

This internal nagging will not last

Take this opportunity to grow.

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Take control you got this now.

Your mind drifts back to normalcy

Taking command of your fears, wow

It’s the strongest you can be…

–aaa

What Will He Write Next?

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Creativity, please don’t leave me now

Many WordPress writings to create and how

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Rhymes and themes I must work out

That’s what being a blogger to me is about

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My Subscribers from all walks and tastes

I press inside for new material to place

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Haikus, Raikus, poetry, and posts

Receiving great feedback means the most

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Passions, peace, and loves long gone

Are what my writings are most based on

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My everyday life is also a source

Of various musings in my course

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My audience, I adore and hope you grow

Your “likes” mean more than you’ll ever know

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Even occasional criticism can be ethereal

As it motivates me to create better material

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I challenge myself in every way

Hoping the writings improve each day

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When inspiration strikes my iPhone nearby

Captured in the Notes app, then my ideas fly

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I next must search for images that match

The words I just whipped up from scratch

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A photo of mine or to Google for one

Filters applied, imagery, originality, done

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Now post in Jetpack and hope for the best

That my newest effort will pass their test…

-aaa

In your Right Mind

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It’s time to share a some thoughts

For those who’ve had hearts broken

It’s the ought to and ought nots

To whom that I have spoken

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Take a deep look inside

And tell me what you see

If you’re not beaming with pride

You’re stuck and still not free

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Look at all you’ve done

And all that you’ve survived

Not all of it was fun

But you’re here and still alive

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Don’t worry about the future

Don’t dwell upon the past

Living in the present will suture

All the wounds you have amassed

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Take lots of chances

In any opportunity to change

No more missed advances

Embrace your inner strange

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Move forward on your journey

But know just where you are

If you’re twenty, fifty-two, or thirty

You are a shining star

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So pat yourself right on the back

And have some pride, my friend

For your journeys been on a weary trek

But the worst of it is at an end…

-AAA

Evolve, Softly

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pick up weary pieces on the ground

then pick yourself up without a sound

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no words as they don’t matter

massive changes can make your life shatter

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but a stagnet life goes nowhere

clutched hands in face pulling hair

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if you don’t act you’ll never change

grow evolve and rearrange

-aaa

Delicious (For the Lovers out There)

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D   elving deeper and deeper inside as I find.

one pleasure after another.

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E   volving from a purely theoretical

friendship into a physical one as lips touch.

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L   ips softer than velvet sweeter than wine

and accepting of mine.

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I   timacy on all levels baked with the fires of

our desires as we descover unspoken

pleasures.

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C   hoosing to embrace every soft inviting part,

an offer of open lips and mouth.

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I   ntimidation melts from the place as I enjoy

each nuance.

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O   ther things people disasters in the world

do not exist for those long enjoyed

moments.

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U   nbelievable wanton desires are cast and

consumed in the white flames of desire.

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S   enses maxed to pleasure, taste, touch,

smell, sound and sites that will forever

burn as those eyes did…  

-aaa

Passions in the Past

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Portent eyes that pierced my heart

And warm smile from the start

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Soft skin velvety so sweet

Made my senses feel complete

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Soft scent of coconut all over

I took in her every feature as I’d hover

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Shapely legs strong and firm

A shear perfection, the very term

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Pursing lips I often miss

Soft and ready for a kiss

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Toned body that reigned supreme

All her features are a dream

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Laughter and passion while sharing space

Two fingers softly traced her body and face

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I cannot forget the greatest part

Her brain, and passions for music and art

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She slowly slipped away from me

We’re separate souls on an endless sea

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Now a friend an acquaintance of sort

Reading my posts, a past cohort

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Through her exit cut like a dull knife

I’m grateful for her indelible touch on my life.

-aaa