She Wanted…

She wanted to be pleased

So I obliged her.

She wanted to feel safe

So I protected her.

She wanted to feel love

So I loved her.

She wanted to be taken

So I took her.

She wanted to be excited

So I excited her.

She wanted to be delighted.

So I delighted her.

She wanted appreciation

So I appreciated her.

She wanted to relaxation

So I relaxed her.

She wanted to be desired

So I desired her.

She wanted to be admired

So I admired her.

She wanted peace

So I calmed her.

She wanted to share vulnerability

So I trusted her.

She wanted to be kissed

So I kissed her.

She wanted to be missed

So I missed her.

She wanted to belong

So I held her.

She wanted to be strong

So I strengthened her.

She wanted to be free

So I freed her…

-aaa

Three Things Challenge # M701

Three Things Challenge #M701 | pensitivity101

Today’s three things challenge our poem to include one more of the following words:

ASHEN
PALE
COLOURLESS

Death’s Ashen Face

Her face was colorless and pale.

Her skin, ashen and cool to the touch.

She lay in the box her eyes were closed.

Her hands perfectly folded on her chest.

Hands folded softly together as if in prayer.

They’d never move from that position.

Her face and body were gauntly thin.

The disease that took her life took the rest of her long before.

She had been my favorite aunt, godmother, and most important person in my life.

Now, all that remained was an empty shell

Of the person I had known from birth to age 32.

It wasn’t enough time not nearly enough.

And all I have now are memories.

I have registered several angry complaints with Universe.

But alas, nothing has or will change, she’s gone.

The funny thing about grief, it never ever ends.

You just integrate it into your everyday life.

These nearly 20 years she’s been gone still hurt like it was yesterday.

Some of the best parts of my heart are and soul buried with her to this day…

-aaa

Pabst Smile

Phil enjoys the taste of beer

So much, his mouth changed its veneer

As the beer suds mellowed

All his teeth were yellowed

Every morning, he gargles Pabst, I hear…

-aaa

Another Milestone?

I must thank you all again!! I have the greatest readers and subscribers in the world. I just hit the 500 mark on subscribers/followers. This is day 65 of blogging in a row since I started.

I’ve been trying so hard to build up an audience and ultimately get published which is my dream. I thank you all for being part of that and for being so kind to me.

I hope you’ll be around as I continue to do my best to challenge myself and channel my creativity into something beautiful. Thank you all again. I love you all and thank you for reading.

-aaa ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Daily Question # 65

What is the legacy you want to leave behind?

This is a good question and it’s one that I hope I can answer properly.

I’ve through an awful lot in this life. It’s been tough, it’s been crazy, there have been great moments and bad moments too.

If what I experienced in many hard lessons, can help others then it would be worth it and that would be a legacy I could leave.

Love, passion, hurt, pain, insanity, these emotions are like the food for my writing. They are the motivation. They are the inspiration.

This blog, my posts, and any future books I write, will be all my legacy. And hopefully will be a good legacy.

-aaa

Daily Question # 64

How do you feel about cold weather?

A slightly heavier me in January 2015, in the storm I’m talking about.

I’d like today’s question I think I prefer cooler seasons because I run kind of hot, but I do have a little story about a winter in Texas and how high to use my wits to avoid disaster.

Anybody who’s lived in north Texas knows the weather there can be quite schizophrenic. The few years I lived in Texas the weather was exceptionally insane, even in the winters.

In 2015 the winter in North Texas near Dallas (Irving) was pretty bad. At the time I was working in Farmers Branch off Midway (if anybody knows where that is). We had a pretty major snowstorm and got close to 8 inches of snow one Friday morning.

It’s not unheard of in Texas, but not terribly common for sure to get snow or ice (I guess I was lucky to get to witness both). They let us out of work early on account of the weather was pretty bad and my Jeep Cherokee had a bad heating core in it. so as a result, I had no heat and no way to defrost the snow and ice that was accumulating on my windshield.

I was on the turnpike and was so far getting along OK luckily, only a few miles from my exit when the car in front of me kicked up a puddle and the puddle hit my windshield and ice instantly. I could not see a thing out of my windshield at this point the windshield wipers were frozen. So I slow down, I didn’t hit the brakes and looked (as best I could) out the side window. I managed to do this for a mile and a half until I arrived at my exit and just as I was getting off the turnpike my windshield wipers became thawed. And they cleared the ice off the windshield and I was able to see again. I safely made it home and counted myself lucky.

Not long after the event, I did get my heating core replaced, but I ended up getting a new car at that point which wasn’t a bad idea as I think that Jeep Cherokee was possessed anyway….

-aaa

Journey of a Lifetime

Winter is frigid

Winter is cold.

Cold day in hell

Cold as ice.

Ice cream sundae

Ice cream man.

Man of the house

Man of war

War what’s it good for

War games.

Games a plenty

Games people play.

Play the record

Play on words.

Words of wisdom

Words can kill.

Killer in you is the killer in me

Kill eye.

Eye of the beholder

Eye of the tiger.

Tiger eyes

Tiger lily.

Lily livered

Lily White.

White shoulders

White room.

Room service

Room with a view.

View to a kill

View from the window.

Window washer

Window to my soul.

Soul mate

Soul kitchen.

Kitchen aid

Kitchen sink.

Sink that put

Sink or swim.

Swim in the main stream

Swim in the sea.

Sea of Cortez

Sea of Joy.

Joy ride

Joy to the world.

World in my eyes

World without love.

Love of a lifetime.

Love is a journey.

Lifetime…

Journey…

-aaa

Trial By Fire

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Graduating in life

Can cut like a knife.

The rights of passage

Are through our assuage.

The world has turned

With each lesson learned.

Rising up from the dirt

Evolving with

change and hurt.

With all triumphs and falls

Remain true to you, through it all.

Clean up the mess

Hope for the best

Moving on to the next test…

-aaa

Written for the word of the day challenge. Today’s word was graduate.

Daily Question # 63

Have you ever broken a bone?

I haven’t broken any bones that I know of. Let me further explain that. I am a klutz first class that second not third I went for the gusto with first class. The ground and I we have a very close personal relationship. I’ve taken so many spills and falls in my life. It’s not funny. Who am I kidding? It is funny. I’ve had some spectacular spill, sprained feet, and ankles numerous times and possibly broke one and never knew it. As a result, they hurt nowadays from time to time.

But I’ll tell you something I’m proud of, every time I took a spill I always stuck my crash landing. 🤣

-aaa

Quick Note Regarding Comments Stuck In Word Press Purgatory Hell

Some of you might be seeing a lot of responses from yours truly, to comments over the past 5 weeks or so. This is happened for some reason your comments got stuck in Word Press comment purgatory for lack of a better word.

I want to make sure I always try to reply and thank everybody because you all took the time to write something, and I want to make sure I reply as well.

For some reason, some got flagged as spam and some got flagged as pending, so I went in and responded to them and made sure that they got through. So if any of you are noticing and thinking “wow I said this a long time ago and now you’re responding” that is why.

Thank you all again for your positive words and reflections and sharing your emotional responses to my writing. It’s truly a writer’s ‘life blood’ and I thank you for reading.

P.S. you may want to check the comment settings in your own and Jetpack client or whatever you’re using for blogging and you may find a bunch of comments in there you didn’t realize you received.

-aaa

PAA Public Author’s Announcement From a Green Blogger

A little tip for blogging that I just learned today, if somebody if anybody makes condescending inflammatory judgments about your character based on your writing, thank them. Don’t respond don’t react don’t argue just thank them. 😊

Now I’m a bit new and green on the blogging front so at first I did give into the comment that was made, and I responded and defended myself vehemently and then the person responded again with even more inflammatory comments. I realized this was all a game. I chose not to play. I went back to edit my original response and thanked them. 😊

They’re gonna be trolls out there and you just have to let them say what they wanna say. They don’t define you you do they don’t define your writing you do and they certainly haven’t lived in your shoes and you remember that consider the source… 😊

Any response to your poetry or your stories or essays is a good response. The goal of the writer is to emote emotion to the reader. It could be agreement with what we’re writing or could be harsh judgment on the writer. It doesn’t matter just don’t react just them. Thank them for taking the time to write any response. 😊

Thank you for reading and putting up with my soapbox rant. Please return to your regularly scheduled programmes… 😊

-aaa

Daily Question # 62

How do you balance work and home life?

This is actually a pretty good question. At least this one doesn’t sound like a marketing research question, lol, but you never know. 🙄

It’s quite easy for me to balance home and work life as I live alone and I work from home. By day, I’m a tech writer for the gas company. By night, I’m a blogger that’s the challenge.

It’s like working two jobs, having two muses, and trying to keep them both happy and still have a life in between it all.

I just find that I’m pretty much constantly writing all the time right now. I’m approaching new poetic styles and forms on here challenging myself every day. And I’m also working at my tech job gathering requirements for information systems we’re replacing using all of my information technology experience from the past 28 years.

In between everything I clean I cook I keep my apartment immaculate because I see it is an extension of myself. This falls under self-care we all need to not forget self-care, no matter how busy we are with our writing, our efforts, our jobs.

The only time I really relax and rest is on the weekends and even then if I get a lot of ideas, I’ll do a lot of writing still. 

Truly challenging all of it and I like it. I like having to push myself and my creativity as far as I can.

Each day, a new challenge, but I like it. And I hope I do all my muses justice…

-aaa

Deadly Blue Eyes

I’ll tell you a story of Dottie McGill

She was born out of tough circumstances

Now she fights off, a desire to kill

We know not why of her mad desires

Is it her madness or just shear will

A look of blood in her cold blue eyes

Gives my heart an arctic chill

Loving her, is taking great chances

I wonder if anyone will swallow that pill?

-aaa

I’m Gone

Use me

abuse me

and you’ll lose me

Flake me

Fake me

And you’ll mistake me

Hurt me

Shirk me

And I’ll dessert thee

Push me

Prod me

And flog me.

I thought you were the one

Instead you used me for fun

And now I’m done…

-aaa

Daily Question # 61

What sacrifices have you made in life?

What sacrifices have I made in life?

Well, there are sacrifices that are worth it and there are ones that are foolish. Honestly, I think the return you get on your sacrifice, will determine whether it was worth it or not. For instance, sacrificing your time, money and health for someone you loved that doesn’t love you back isn’t worth it. This is a very hard lesson that I have had to spend about 30 years with three women learning. And as I am divorced yet again I’m learning it again.

Sacrificing who you are and what you like in exchange to be more accessible to other people isn’t worth it. You need to attract people that resonate at the same frequency that you do. That like the same things that you do, and that are worth all that you are willing to sacrifice for them.

Sacrificing your passions in exchange for a paycheck or an income or financial security truly isn’t worth it either. You need to find a career that is aligned with what you love to do and your passion I don’t care what it is too many of us have compromised what we truly love to do in exchange for monetary security. I’m now doing what I love and I’m making the most money I’ve ever made and it’s very fulfilling and satisfying to do that every day. And writing every day is truly bliss. I regret not doing this from the get-go.

I’ve learned these things The Hard Way, the hardest way of all. I’m 52 years old now, I’m not young anymore. I know I’m not old or ancient, but I gave up a lot for people that didn’t give a solitary care about me and that was because I didn’t love myself.

I had to learn the hard way that everything starts and ends with us so you need to love yourself and create boundaries and know you’re worth or your sacrifices in life will all be waste. And all you’ll have for all those years and difficulty is a bunch of bills and lessons to teach to people so they don’t make your mistakes in life. And also, you won’t be sitting there with your head between your hands, in, wondering what happened and how it all went by so fast.

Know you’re worth before you make any sacrifices for other people in this life. Because, many people aren’t worth your talents, your love, your money, or most of all your time…

-aaa

Taking on today’s Word of the day which is  “Cheat”

https://wordofthedaychallenge.wordpress.com/2024/05/16/cheat/

IF I EVER THOUGHT THEY YOU’D CHEAT

If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I never would’ve loved you.

If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I’d’ve known I was miles above you.

If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I never would’ve proposed to you.

If I’d ever thought you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t have given the most to you.

If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t’ve given flowers to you.

If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t have given hours to you .

If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t have given my soul to you.

If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t have given control to you.

If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t have given my heart to you.

If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t even start with you.

If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t have married you.

If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t have carried you.

If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t have fought for you.

If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t’ve spent or bought for you.

If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I wouldn’t of been a friend to you.

If I ever thought that you’d cheat,

then I’d sooner end it with you.

-AAA 05/17/2024

Thirty Thousand Word Press Views

The Writer 😊

What does it feel like?

Getting 30,000 views?

In just 60 days?

It feels amazing.

Like I am walking on air.

Never touching ground.

Or I’m floating high.

Propelled by all of my dreams.

And all my desires…

All at the same time.

I wonder what will be next?

I guess we will see…

-aaa ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Subscribers

Thank you for getting me to 30,000+ ❤️❤️❤️

S uperlative

U underappreciated

B eyond amazing

S ensational

C reative

R eaders and Writers

I nnovators themselves

B usy submitting their own exhibits

E ngaging in fantastic feedback

R eal people all over the world

S ounding boards for everything I create…

-aaa

Over the Moon and Appreciative of all of you 

60 Days Elapsed

If anybody would tell me when I started my block 60 days ago, that on the 60th day even before the day was over, I would have 30,000 views, 8700 visitors, 19,200 likes, and 844 comments including mine. I’d say that they were smoking something funny. But alas my friends it’s happened!!!! I still can’t believe it. I’m speechless right now…

I am thankful to all of you, my subscribers, anyone that “likes” my writings and share their comments, and constructive information on what they feel about my writing you’re all been invaluable and this wouldn’t have happened couldn’t of happened without you.

I also want to think the real heavy hitters out there that have thousands of subscribers hopefully someday maybe someday I’ll get there. Thank you for sharing and relogging my writing, and sharing comments about how it made you feel because that is what an author just needs. It’s like our life blood. 

And for all of you and your generosity, I have two poems for all of you coming up for my subscribers, and positive readers out there.

I’m just getting started and I hope I can continue to write good material that moves you enough to say something about it or to like it or to share it and I’ll be reading all of your work too. I’m very lucky to be around so many mentors in fact, you’re all pretty much mentors to me. 

Thank you all again and I love you all, and thank you for reading and bearing with my run-on sentences in this post (not the greatest example for a masters of English graduate writer but I’ll do better next time 🤣🤣🤣🤣).

-aaa (Anthony Andrew Aquino Jr) ❤️❤️❤️

Frankensteina

Short tempered teacher sits at her loom

Creating a dark aura of gloom.

Her students remained frightened

Since her bolts need to be tightened.

So the classroom is filled with such doom.

-aaa

Seeds…

There once was a bloke from Leeds

That came upon some seeds

Pondering what was found

Inserting himself in the ground 🙄

He later moved on to seedier deeds…

-aaa

Pain Struck (Haikus)

Feeling searing pain.

My entire world keeps spinning.

Migraines are the worst!

Each time I get up.

I am stunned by vertigo.

Aspirin is no relief.

Must be unconscious.

The only relief is sleep.

Soft dark and quiet.

-aaa

I Can’t Stop Writing

I’m not going to write now I refuse

But then the words come that I must use

My creativity is taking abuse

Yet my compulsion writes as I choose

If you were in my shoes

You’d understand my views

So my brain without relief, stews

I’d rather be restful on a cruise

Alas, here I again sharing my truths

Another example which poetry proves…

One final thought as I complete these grooves

Is my art imitating life or life imitating art, it behooves…

-aaa

Vertigo

I stand and I fall

The world is moving violently

I close my eyes

Everything is still moving

I feel myself taken by it

Caught up in the endless motion

It’s almost like I feel this wave

Taking me away and whirling me about

Nothing is still

Looking in the mirror I appear to be moving

Everything takes on a violent spin

All I can do is lay down and take it all in

Even in the quiet darkness

Everything is still moving though I lay still

Drifting to thankful sleep

The dizziness haunts my dreams…

-aaa

Daily Question #59

Are you a leader or a follower?

Honestly, I’m a bit of both. in music, I was a leader for many years as drum captain and first chair. In Junior High and in high school.

In technology and in my job now I also am a leader, and I frequently run meetings and present information to management.

I’m very also relaxed that’s where I’m not a leader too. I’m really go with the flow. I’m by no means and alpha. I’m more like a theta lol

-aaa

Lady Luck

Miss Lady Luck

Doesn’t give a f*%k

She’ll grab all your cash

In less than a flash

She’ll take your bank roll

Leaving a gaping hole

She’ll take your additional money

And you’ll lose that too, not funny

She’ll take your jackpot win

And let it go super thin

She’ll take your paycheck advance

If you give her half a chance

She’ll stand at your side and leave you flat

And there’s little you can do about that…

-aaa

Head Over

Come on over

Come as you are

Are you a hypnotist

Are you gonna go my way.

Way to San José

Way to go

Go fourth among the people

Go now

Now is the time

Now or never

Never say “never”

Never had no one, ever

Ever Have To Make Up Your Mind

Ever long

Long ago in a galaxy far far away

Long Time

Time after time

Time in a bottle

Bottle-nosed dolphin

Bottle of wine

Wine by the bottle

Wine me

Me oh my

Me myself and I

I never want to see you again.

I am one

One way or another

One (is the loneliest number)

Number one

Number three

Three it’s a magic number

Three strange days

Days of our lives

Days of thunder

Thunder rolls

Thunder island

Islands in the street

Island in the sun

Sunshine Superman

Sun goes down

Down to the bottom

Down in a hole

Hole in the bucket

Hole in my head

Head down

Head on over

Over my head

Over and out

Head…

Out…

-aaa

Action!

Just keep going

Just be you

You can accomplish anything

You are my sunshine

Sunshine all over me

Sunshine of your love

Love conquers all

Love slays the savage beast

Beast master

Best of burden

Burden of honesty

Burden in my hand

Hand in glove

Hand it over

Over done

Over and out

Outshined

Out of control

Control yourself

Control is everything

Everything counts

Everything everywhere all at once

Once is enough

Once upon a time

Time is on my side, yes it is

Time is money

Money, that’s all I want

Money for nothing

Nothing from nothing leaves, nothing

Nothing else matters

Matters of trust

Matters of time and space

Space is the place

Space battle

Battle of evermore

Battle of who could care less

Less than zero

Less is more

More or less

More than words

Words of wisdom

Words can kill

Kill your television

Kill the lights

Lights in the sky

Lights, camera, action

Action plan

Action will be taken

Taken…

Plan…

-aaa

Lady Limerix

Lady Limerix is her name.

Composing poetry, is her game.

She writes silly prose.

While darning her hoes.

By wildness standards, she’s not very tame.

-aaa

Circumstance

Men must meet a rant

Create an instant mantra

Stain a master’s act

Man can raise a ruin

Meet a crane’s stance

Trace its inner ire

See it as it rises

Care as its airs cease…

-aaa

Daily Question Number 58

List your top 5 favorite fruits.

Though I still suspect this is for marketing purposes by region, I’ll share mine (in no particular order).

1. Bananas

I’ve loved these since my childhood they’re always delicious with cereal and desserts on ice cream or just buy themselves.

2. Rainier Cherries

To me these are the best tasting cherries you can get. They’re the most expensive and they look very different. They’re orange and yellow versus Bing, which are red and various shades of purple and even black. Try them sometime they’re worth it.

3. Kumquats

Ever ever since my childhood my Nana had a kumquat tree and I always had them and they’re just like an orange inside out. The skin is the sweet part and the inside part is more bitter.

4. Plums

If possible, I prefer the Italian plums. Very very sweet. Delicious when they’re right juicy a real delight on a hot summers day.

5. Pineapple

Another frequent go to for me. I love pineapple always have always will very sweet and tangy delicious and drinks. Delicious by itself. Delicious on desserts. Chocolate covered pineapples are good too.

-aaa

Daily Question # 57

What’s one small improvement you can make in your life?

Today’s question is an excellent one. I have many answers that come to mind, but I will choose the most appropriate. This encapsulates most closely to me for my journey and I hope it helps.

One small improvement you can make in your life very simply, change. A change in job, a change in venue, a change in your life, a change in diet, a change in careers, a change in relationships.

They say growth comes from change and I say they’re right. These past couple of years I’ve been through separation/divorce, moving from one state to another, and a major career change. These occurred almost all simultaneously (aside from my last move, which happened October of last year).

I’d be lying if I told you that this was easy because it’s not. It’s been very difficult. I often nickname this part of my life, my “fire journey” for a reason. 🔥🔥🔥🔥

Through change you achieve growth. Through growth, you change your perspective on your life, your past your present, even your future, and that is where you find peace and even grace. Despite all the bad things that happened in the past.

But change is scary. It’s the greatest thing we all resist. Our brain for some reason tells us “no don’t do it, it’ll be too difficult!!”. What we have to learn is sometimes our brain is wrong. This idea of preserving our ego at all costs is foolhardy.

New books and new ideas often say shedding the ego the way to go and I agree. The best way you can do that you do that, is through change. That’s been my experience and I’m sticking with it. Good luck everybody and be brave!!!

Thanks for reading and subscribing!!! 😊

-aaa

Poetic Alchemy

I’m trying to write new poems

And new poetic forms

I’m trying to write my usual gems

While breaking all the norms.

I like the challenge it brings

And the way it pushes my mind

Writing about all sorts of things

No two are the same kind.

Stretching as I try

To contort to all the rules

Feeling my brain fry

As I utilize my tools.

I never know what I will write

Until I reach the very end

With styles, I am an alchemist tonight

As I feel my creativity bend…

-aaa

Mothers

Mothers are definitely the best

They always answer to the test

That’s why they’re better than the rest

Knowing them we are blessed.

Mothers made us our food

Showed how to be good

Did everything for us they could

Like every mother should.

Mothers taught us what to say

How to happily play

That there weren’t enough hours in the day

Mine even taught me how to pray.

Mothers fix our many scrapes

Don’t tolerate when we act like apes

Sometimes give us fruit and grapes

As long as we don’t stay in the drapes.

Mothers are why we are alive

Many taught us how to drive

When mine did I wasn’t sure if she’d survive

Thanks to my mother I learn and thrive.

Mothers show up every day

They keep our tantrums all at bay

We hope forever they will stay

With that wish, I often pray…

-aaa ❤️ 🌹

Mommy, I Love You

For all the mommy’s out there (especially mine) ❤️❤️

M other

O original fan

M oral support

M y first friend

Y ou loved me before anyone

I wouldn’t be who I am without you.

L ow and behold you’ve always been there

O utrageously boisterous and silly

V alued and appreciated

E very time I skinned a knee you were there

Y ou’ve always been my rock

O ur lives are better with moms

U ntil the end of time I’m eternally grateful…

-aaa

Learn Through my Mistakes

I’ll tell you a tale.

And I’ll show you a life lived.

Beauty and sadness.

Good Times and bad ones.

All the pleasures and the pain.

Are for the choosing.

What shall I share first?

All the insecurities.

All tribulations.

Here for the taking.

Just close your eyes and I’ll speak.

Decree my journey.

Words flow like a stream.

Some nightmares some a dream.

Mostly just serene.

When the story’s done.

You’ll know more about yourself.

Apply these lessons.

Live your best life now.

Take chances and change a lot.

Your journey is yours…

-aaa