I’m Gone

Use me

abuse me

and you’ll lose me

Flake me

Fake me

And you’ll mistake me

Hurt me

Shirk me

And I’ll dessert thee

Push me

Prod me

And flog me.

I thought you were the one

Instead you used me for fun

And now I’m done…

-aaa

Originally Published 05/18/2024

Seduction of Destruction 

Unsuspected 

Angel of death

Victims don’t know

Until last breath.

Cold blood in her

Runs like the wind

Her heart is ice

Many times sinned.

In her clutches 

Haven’t a chance

She’ll destroy you 

From that first dance.

Many untruths

To get her way

Keep you guessing

Both night and day.

She will proclaim 

You’re the loser

But it’s all lies

From an abuser.

Start making plans

To escape soon

Further away

Than nighttime’s moon.

Just run away 

And don’t look back

You’ll turn to stone

From all that flack…

-AAA11/17/2024

Never Said Goodbyes

What could you tell me 

That I don’t already know

What could you sell me 

That’d make my life grow.

What else could you reveal 

That would set everything right

What could you gesture, a meal

To appease all my appetites

What could you do to restore faith 

Then and only then your kindness starts

So, why so often are you a wraith

Cruelty not love, did you impart.

What other games would you play

Toying with the purest heart

When your final hand is played 

Is when resentment starts.

How far will your “sorries” go

To reassert my favor with you

Are you truly sorry, “no”

The main reason I left you.

Marriages come then they go 

When someone leaves it’s earned

After years of the to and fro

The love, destroyed, it’s burned…

-AAA 11/09/2024

I Was Disgustingly Yours

I once was yours 

In that vain 

Endless chores

Pouring rain.

Hateful notions

Thrown at me 

Lackluster devotion

In an empty sea.

Promises given 

But never delivered

Agendas hidden

Coldness shivered 

Heartless mental abuse 

At your very hands 

In my pain you’d amuse 

Making other sticky plans.

Inside was out 

And outside in 

Matriarchal clout 

Cold ice within.

You though you were clever

That I’d eternally chomp at the bit

Until I saw never, your forever

Then I wised up and quit.

Less and less I look back 

All the lessons have been learned

I greatly suffered from your lack

Someday, your karma will be returned…

-AAA 10/09/2024

NOTHING 

Nothing is what you gave 

Nothing is what you are 

Nothing for us to save 

Nothing even now, afar.

Nothing is what you’ll do 

Nothing is what you stand for

Nothing left for me to do 

Nothing but closing that door.

Nothing is what you had in your heart

Nothingness you steered me to 

Nothing from the very start

Nothing but relief, now that we’re through…

-AAA 10/03/2024

Narcissist

N agging

A mbivelant

R eve he

C old hearted

I nnocent of everything, in their mind 

S iren luring you into the rocks

S ullen

I gnonymous

S anctimonious 

T yrannical 

-AAA 08/20/2024

Married and Divorced to Ms Cruelty

She wouldn’t inflate his ego.

It just wasn’t her to be that kind.

She’d rather see him fall down.

As flat on his face as possible.

She wouldn’t let a single soul talk down to him

At the first word, she was a furious defender.

He mistook this for love and care.

In reality, putting him down was only her indulgence, and no one else’s.

She wouldn’t be intimate with him, ever.

She’d give every excuse from fibromyalgia to menopause.

He felt she was simply only attracted to his money.

He was right because she saved all her intimacy for her ex husband.

She’d instigate many fights at the expense of his dignity.

She’d mercilessly push him to his tipping point.

Then get mad at him for his reaction to her barrage of incendiary statements.

Then when he’d walk away to end the argument, she’d fire off another volley, a parting shot, “go pout”.

She didn’t care whether he lived or died.

His illnesses and complications from Diabetes were his problem.

Any symptoms or issue he experienced was all in his head.

She had the bedside manner of steel wool and the warmth to match.

Even when he left her she refused to be human.

Using the Ex grandchildren as weapons in her arsenal of cruelty.

She fought him tooth and nail for alimony.

Until he relented and paid her, a worthy price at any amount to be put of her life forever.

-08/04/2024

Neglected in Love

Chew me up and spit me out

Drop me like an afterthought

This is what your love is all about

Leaving someone to fester and rot.

Take and take and never give

Selfishness your middle name

Not a happy life to live

When the relationship is like a game.

Lure me back when I fade away

Making me thing you just might care

Manipulations led us astray

When you’re caught all unaware.

No amount of love given

Will alter this torturous course

A life of misery is what you are living

Wondering if it can ever get worse.

The only thing to do

Is bring this all to a final end

Loving yourself through and through

Will assure this never happens again…

-AAA 07/05/2024

New Source

Kick up your heels

Get back on the horse

Adjust your reels

You’ve got a new source.

Set your hooks

Set up your bait

Spruce up your looks,

And just wait.

Get yourself a money train

Someone who’ll support y’all

And when he figures it out in vain

You’ll take him for a cash windfall.

-AAA 06/29/2024

I No Longer Dwell in Hell

Life with you was the purest hell

For the time with you I’d dwell

No longer trapped in your prison cell

I stopped buying the bullshit you’d sell

As I had rather disliked its smell

Free from the bounds of alimony as well

Much happier as you can tell

Beyond glad I broke your spell

Picked myself up from where I fell

Living my best life as all things gel…

-aaa

BFF, BEF Or BFE

You displace your anger and frustration all over me. Why? Does it make you feel better to kick me in the teeth.

Apparently it does. Whatever eases you, my friend.

We’ve known each other now for how long? Thirty-nine years and you never change.

It’s always what you feel and what you know And anything falls outside of that bothers you, including me.

So rather than let me be me it bothers you. So you have to cut me down and make me change into something to conform and contort into another shape.

You label me a sheep among wolves. Do you really know me that well?

I’ve opened up to you and told you more than I told almost anyone. And yet, you still hold me in such contempt.

I think it would hurt me except, I just don’t fit into the mold that you want

Yeah, you try to group me in with all these other morons. Because it makes it easier for you more palpable.

You get me angry to get me to react. That’s totally gaslighting. Then you get on my case for being mad.

I wonder if you even know that you’re doing it? I don’t think you do I think you do it unconsciously.

Well, I’m sure after this exchange we won’t talk for weeks, or months, or ever. But I will never standby and let you trash me ever again…

-aaa

I’m Gone

Use me

abuse me

and you’ll lose me

Flake me

Fake me

And you’ll mistake me

Hurt me

Shirk me

And I’ll dessert thee

Push me

Prod me

And flog me.

I thought you were the one

Instead you used me for fun

And now I’m done…

-aaa

Gaslight (Ex) Wife

I know it’s up but you say it’s down

Desired respect but treated as a clown

Right I swear but you say left

Peace of mind that is your theft

Saying it’s inside when I knew it was out

Exasperate me to a scream and shout

Feel it Cold when it’s clearly hot

Giving away the love I never got

Insisting night while the sun says it’s day

Running crazy circles with games you play

Proclaim it near when it’s rather far

Smashing sanity without leaving a scar

Misdirection has me befuddled and mad

Kick up those high heels with fun to be had

With her tones and a hurtful word

I Fall prey to pageantry of absurd

My temper rises and I feel hurt

And it’s time for her dessert

Calmly asking why I’m upset

Patronizing as she can get

Criticizing my tone which rises fast

Wondering how long this hurt will last

I turn around and walk away

A parting shot she would say

Getting away is what my goal was about

Then above a whisper, “Go ahead and pout”

-aaa 🔥