
Please tell me the truth.
Honesty is everything.
Without it we’re lost…
-aaa
Originally Published 06/04/2024

Please tell me the truth.
Honesty is everything.
Without it we’re lost…
-aaa
Originally Published 06/04/2024

Use me
abuse me
and you’ll lose me
–
Flake me
Fake me
And you’ll mistake me
–
Hurt me
Shirk me
And I’ll dessert thee
–
Push me
Prod me
And flog me.
–
I thought you were the one
Instead you used me for fun
And now I’m done…
-aaa
Originally Published 05/18/2024

Unsuspected
Angel of death
Victims don’t know
Until last breath.
–
Cold blood in her
Runs like the wind
Her heart is ice
Many times sinned.
–
In her clutches
Haven’t a chance
She’ll destroy you
From that first dance.
–
Many untruths
To get her way
Keep you guessing
Both night and day.
–
She will proclaim
You’re the loser
But it’s all lies
From an abuser.
–
Start making plans
To escape soon
Further away
Than nighttime’s moon.
–
Just run away
And don’t look back
You’ll turn to stone
From all that flack…
-AAA11/17/2024

More frigid then ice
Cooler than arctic circles
and frozen tundras
Human decency left you
Now destined to be alone…
AAA/MAD 11/09/24

What could you tell me
That I don’t already know
What could you sell me
That’d make my life grow.
–
What else could you reveal
That would set everything right
What could you gesture, a meal
To appease all my appetites
–
What could you do to restore faith
Then and only then your kindness starts
So, why so often are you a wraith
Cruelty not love, did you impart.
–
What other games would you play
Toying with the purest heart
When your final hand is played
Is when resentment starts.
–
How far will your “sorries” go
To reassert my favor with you
Are you truly sorry, “no”
The main reason I left you.
–
Marriages come then they go
When someone leaves it’s earned
After years of the to and fro
The love, destroyed, it’s burned…
-AAA 11/09/2024

I once was yours
In that vain
Endless chores
Pouring rain.
–
Hateful notions
Thrown at me
Lackluster devotion
In an empty sea.
–
Promises given
But never delivered
Agendas hidden
Coldness shivered
–
Heartless mental abuse
At your very hands
In my pain you’d amuse
Making other sticky plans.
–
Inside was out
And outside in
Matriarchal clout
Cold ice within.
–
You though you were clever
That I’d eternally chomp at the bit
Until I saw never, your forever
Then I wised up and quit.
–
Less and less I look back
All the lessons have been learned
I greatly suffered from your lack
Someday, your karma will be returned…
-AAA 10/09/2024

Nothing is what you gave
Nothing is what you are
Nothing for us to save
Nothing even now, afar.
–
Nothing is what you’ll do
Nothing is what you stand for
Nothing left for me to do
Nothing but closing that door.
–
Nothing is what you had in your heart
Nothingness you steered me to
Nothing from the very start
Nothing but relief, now that we’re through…
-AAA 10/03/2024

N agging
A mbivelant
R eve he
C old hearted
I nnocent of everything, in their mind
S iren luring you into the rocks
S ullen
I gnonymous
S anctimonious
T yrannical
-AAA 08/20/2024

She wouldn’t inflate his ego.
It just wasn’t her to be that kind.
She’d rather see him fall down.
As flat on his face as possible.
–
She wouldn’t let a single soul talk down to him
At the first word, she was a furious defender.
He mistook this for love and care.
In reality, putting him down was only her indulgence, and no one else’s.
–
She wouldn’t be intimate with him, ever.
She’d give every excuse from fibromyalgia to menopause.
He felt she was simply only attracted to his money.
He was right because she saved all her intimacy for her ex husband.
–
She’d instigate many fights at the expense of his dignity.
She’d mercilessly push him to his tipping point.
Then get mad at him for his reaction to her barrage of incendiary statements.
Then when he’d walk away to end the argument, she’d fire off another volley, a parting shot, “go pout”.
–
She didn’t care whether he lived or died.
His illnesses and complications from Diabetes were his problem.
Any symptoms or issue he experienced was all in his head.
She had the bedside manner of steel wool and the warmth to match.
–
Even when he left her she refused to be human.
Using the Ex grandchildren as weapons in her arsenal of cruelty.
She fought him tooth and nail for alimony.
Until he relented and paid her, a worthy price at any amount to be put of her life forever.
-08/04/2024

I do not miss you
I used to love you so much
But you just played me
Like a second class fiddle
To the deepest depths of hell…
-AAA 07/26/2024

Don’t try to trick me
I have seen it all before
This game you won’t win
As I truly know the score
So, please, don’t play me, like that…
-MAD/AAA 07/19/2024

Chew me up and spit me out
Drop me like an afterthought
This is what your love is all about
Leaving someone to fester and rot.
–
Take and take and never give
Selfishness your middle name
Not a happy life to live
When the relationship is like a game.
–
Lure me back when I fade away
Making me thing you just might care
Manipulations led us astray
When you’re caught all unaware.
–
No amount of love given
Will alter this torturous course
A life of misery is what you are living
Wondering if it can ever get worse.
–
The only thing to do
Is bring this all to a final end
Loving yourself through and through
Will assure this never happens again…
-AAA 07/05/2024

Kick up your heels
Get back on the horse
Adjust your reels
You’ve got a new source.
–
Set your hooks
Set up your bait
Spruce up your looks,
And just wait.
–
Get yourself a money train
Someone who’ll support y’all
And when he figures it out in vain
You’ll take him for a cash windfall.
-AAA 06/29/2024

Life with you was the purest hell
For the time with you I’d dwell
No longer trapped in your prison cell
I stopped buying the bullshit you’d sell
As I had rather disliked its smell
Free from the bounds of alimony as well
Much happier as you can tell
Beyond glad I broke your spell
Picked myself up from where I fell
Living my best life as all things gel…
-aaa

Don’t love narcissists
Selfishness, their reality,
Degradation through manipulation
,of you,
Manipulation through degradation
Reality, their selfishness,
Narcissists don’t love…
-aaa

Please tell me the truth.
Honesty is everything.
Without it we’re lost…
-aaa

Abuse is unjust.
Emotional hurts are cruel.
And they do not heal…
-aaa

You displace your anger and frustration all over me. Why? Does it make you feel better to kick me in the teeth.
–
Apparently it does. Whatever eases you, my friend.
–
We’ve known each other now for how long? Thirty-nine years and you never change.
–
It’s always what you feel and what you know And anything falls outside of that bothers you, including me.
–
So rather than let me be me it bothers you. So you have to cut me down and make me change into something to conform and contort into another shape.
–
You label me a sheep among wolves. Do you really know me that well?
–
I’ve opened up to you and told you more than I told almost anyone. And yet, you still hold me in such contempt.
–
I think it would hurt me except, I just don’t fit into the mold that you want
–
Yeah, you try to group me in with all these other morons. Because it makes it easier for you more palpable.
–
You get me angry to get me to react. That’s totally gaslighting. Then you get on my case for being mad.
–
I wonder if you even know that you’re doing it? I don’t think you do I think you do it unconsciously.
–
Well, I’m sure after this exchange we won’t talk for weeks, or months, or ever. But I will never standby and let you trash me ever again…
-aaa

Use me
abuse me
and you’ll lose me
–
Flake me
Fake me
And you’ll mistake me
–
Hurt me
Shirk me
And I’ll dessert thee
–
Push me
Prod me
And flog me.
–
I thought you were the one
Instead you used me for fun
And now I’m done…
-aaa

I know it’s up but you say it’s down
Desired respect but treated as a clown
–
Right I swear but you say left
Peace of mind that is your theft
–
Saying it’s inside when I knew it was out
Exasperate me to a scream and shout
–
Feel it Cold when it’s clearly hot
Giving away the love I never got
–
Insisting night while the sun says it’s day
Running crazy circles with games you play
–
Proclaim it near when it’s rather far
Smashing sanity without leaving a scar
–
Misdirection has me befuddled and mad
Kick up those high heels with fun to be had
–
With her tones and a hurtful word
I Fall prey to pageantry of absurd
–
My temper rises and I feel hurt
And it’s time for her dessert
–
Calmly asking why I’m upset
Patronizing as she can get
–
Criticizing my tone which rises fast
Wondering how long this hurt will last
–
I turn around and walk away
A parting shot she would say
–
Getting away is what my goal was about
Then above a whisper, “Go ahead and pout”
-aaa 🔥

Do take care my friend
Gaslighting loves ill portend
They contort and bend
Mal intentions rend
All senses of self upend
To your bitter end…
-aaa