Tag: heartbreak

Lessons In Heartbreak 

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Does it hurt? 

Good then it was a lesson.

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Did you think? 

Good, you’re using your brain.

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Did you cry? 

Good, then you felt something.

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Did you die? 

No, good, whatever doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.

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Did you grow? 

Good, each heartbreak makes you more aware what you want in your life.

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Did you care? 

Yes, good, being the bigger person isn’t easy, but it is everything.

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Do you reflect?

Good, reflection gains perspective.

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Do you know yourself? 

Good, consider the journey and hardships.

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Did you read this? 

Great, thank you for doing so, have a great day…

-AAA 11/24/2024

Separate Ways

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We had gone as far as we could.

Said all that we could say.

We can do no further good.

So neither of us want to stay.

–

Our last words are being said.

Along with a deep firm hug.

For one last time I held her head.

Feeling my heart give that familiar tug.

–

The times we had were very hard.

Many situations were each unfair.

Our story mapped on a crooked chart.

Painful times we both did share.

–

As I hold her for the last time.

Fresh warm tears stain my face.

Break-ups are horrible like the scene of a crime.

Pain, ruin, and destruction all over the place.

–

What was the final cause?

I’m not sure if we’ll ever know.

Many bad circumstances we tripped across.

Never finding any stability or flow.

–

We share heartfelt goodbyes.

And many “I’m sorries” in our embrace.

We let go, I give kiss her forehead as she cries.

I softly wipe the tears streaking down her face.

–

The life we shared now at an end.

And the memories of it today, are just a haze.

Once we were lovers, but now distant friends.

Parting, each we go our separate ways…

-aaa

Originally Published 05/06/2024

I Just Wasn’t Made For These Times 

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This for me is definitely one of Brian Wilson’s Magnum, opus’s of a song. 

He wrote the brilliant stunning, goosebump music to this song along with the brilliant lyrics by the brilliant Tony Asher. 

It’s hard to pick a favorite on pet sounds because the whole album is absolutely brilliant and it’s one of the albums. I’d have with me if I was ever stranded on a desert Island. 

It’s probably my number three album of all time and this song to me, expresses the troubled, genius of Brian Wilson and how he had a hard time finding those that he could relate to and could relate to him. 

     “ I keep lookin’ for a place to fit in

        Where I can speak my mind

        And I’ve been tryin’ hard to find the   

        people That I won’t leave behind

        They say I got brains But they ain’t 

        doin’ me no good I wish they could”

Note, the interesting use of the theremin towards the end of the song that he’d later use on the masterpiece Good Vibrations as well. 

The Wrecking Crew is present here in full force, I love this staccato eighth notes, running up and down the bass guitar by the amazing bassist Carol Kaye. And the countermelody on the keyboards and stuff is absolutely very, very different and it makes you stop and take notice and then the lyrics are amazingly poignant and heartbreaking.

The great master percussionist and my hero Hal Blaine likely playing the wood blocks in the background, which I also love by the way.

And Brian Wilson singing the lead solo alone, echoing in the cold with only the warm harmonies of himself and his colleagues in the Beach boys, providing the background melodies. 

Please enjoy…

-aaa  

Softly, She Went Away

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Nothing I can do or say 

Wink if an eye, you’re far away

I’ll never forget that day

The way you held me at bay

A very dark day that May

After promises you wouldn’t stray

So sad the games you played

You were so afraid

So your decision was made

You couldn’t of stayed

Your self interest cut like a blade

A great thing was completely unmade

I gave up trying to persuade

A love that you forbade…

-AAA 09/07/2024

Adversity (Thoughts Before the Final Divorce 5/18/22)

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Originally Published 04/29/2024

What do you do when the well runs dry? When emotions are only anger and love dies

You reach out and communicate as much as possible but nothing changes her she just doesn’t want you anymore

You better youself and try to get stronger and more attractive but it has no effect and she is not impressed at all

what can I do or say to change how she feels and lives as nothing seems to impact her demeanor or how she feels

I’d seel my soul to get her to love me like I loved her that doesn’t work either she’s moved on

We do things but they feel like bones she has to throw rather than something she wants to do

I’d rather not be an obligation to anyone

I’d rather be a choice than an option

How will I go on, with all this hurt and pain

I always will, force of nature or habit, pick one

I love the kids and grandkids

How will I live without them, that’s very possible starts anew for the third time, is beyond sad

I can never get things right in my life always taking the course of highest resistance moving straight up hill forever seemingly

I just want to be a happy fellow and feel fully actualized in my life

To do so I have to build up myself created an infrastructure that has never existed

I have to create foundations pore concrete and lay down the plans for a new life and a new me that is able to be happy even if alone forever

I don’t know how I will do it all alone but I likely will have to and flourish despite the lonliness

I guess I am destined to be alone maybe it is as it should be…..

I will love myself somehow because it’s necessary.

If I don’t, then no one will…..

-aaa 9/20/21

Outfinity

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Originally Published 04/26/2024

Alone in the universe.

Starlight has gone out.

Coldness grips at the soul.

Aimlessly floating, going nowhere.

All heavenly bodies disappear.

No moons no comets, all is still.

Silence extends a cold hand concealed by darkness.

Tears drift into the expanse.

Gentle water sprays in all directions.

Cry’s sighs silenced by the vacuum of space.

-aaa

❤️Quantumess❤️

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Originally Published 04/25/2024

If I saw you right now what would I say.

If there were song for it what would I play?

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If time were under control how would we clock.

If music were our favorite how would we rock?

–

If light is a relative thing how do we shine.

If hearts are to hold why not mine?

–

If challenge of change makes me burn 🔥.

Is the price of wisdom worth the spurn?

–

If the heartbreak was required.

Why wasn’t she mired?

–

If love is for the all.

Why wouldn’t she fall?

–

If growth is great and fear is small.

Did you just master walking tall?

–

I think it’s worth the price of purest gold.

To perfectly align with half of a soul… ❤️

-aaa

Four Lunes: Seasons of Friendship, Love, and Heartbreak

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A) Summer: Friendship Found

Summer reintroduced us

After a 25 year break

Becoming fast friends.

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B) Fall We Meet, Passions Ignite

Fall we met

Things took off from there

Always looking forward.

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C) Winter: Cold, Though We Kept Warm

Winter froze us

But we always kept warm

Sustaining each other.

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D) Spring: Heartbreak Arrives

Spring consumed all

Ghosting without explanation you disappeared.

A huge disappointment…

-AAA 07/18/2024

Crushed

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She really took him for such a fall.

He had no idea until it was too late.

There’s nothing that could be done at all.

Just pack it up, and call it a day.

Try bouncing a ball against the wall.

That should clear your weary mind.

Or placate further, hike a hill that’s tall.

It’s over now, for this, there is no debate.

One day soon, you’ll be clear of this squall…

-AAA 07/17/2024

Love Rejected 💔

Anthony13 Comments

What can I do

What can I say

It’s now all moot

Since you’ve gone away.

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I gave you love

Without fear or scare

You left with a shove

I guess life isn’t fair.

–

You called me a beast

In our passionate bed

Now crumbs and not a feast

In my wearied head

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No goodbyes

Or final embrace

I choked on your lies

With tear stained face.

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We shared our souls

Mutual attraction fed

Now nothing consoles

You chose him, instead.

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At least in the end

You finally fessed up

But late omission is not a friend

But a bitter cup.

-aaa

Separate Ways

Anthony5 Comments

We had gone as far as we could.

Said all that we could say.

We can do no further good.

So neither of us want to stay.

–

Our last words are being said.

Along with a deep firm hug.

For one last time I held her head.

Feeling my heart give that familiar tug.

–

The times we had were very hard.

Many situations were each unfair.

Our story mapped on a crooked chart.

Painful times we both did share.

–

As I hold her for the last time.

Fresh warm tears stain my face.

Break-ups are horrible like the scene of a crime.

Pain, ruin, and destruction all over the place.

–

What was the final cause?

I’m not sure if we’ll ever know.

Many bad circumstances we tripped across.

Never finding any stability or flow.

–

We share heartfelt goodbyes.

And many “I’m sorries” in our embrace.

We let go, I give kiss her forehead as she cries.

I softly wipe the tears streaking down her face.

–

The life we shared now at an end.

And the memories of it today, are just a haze.

Once we were lovers, but now distant friends.

Parting, each we go our separate ways…

-aaa

Adversity (Thoughts Before the Final Divorce 5/18/22)

Anthony24 Comments

What do you do when the well runs dry? When emotions are only anger and love dies

You reach out and communicate as much as possible but nothing changes her she just doesn’t want you anymore

You better youself and try to get stronger and more attractive but it has no effect and she is not impressed at all

what can I do or say to change how she feels and lives as nothing seems to impact her demeanor or how she feels

I’d seel my soul to get her to love me like I loved her that doesn’t work either she’s moved on

We do things but they feel like bones she has to throw rather than something she wants to do

I’d rather not be an obligation to anyone

I’d rather be a choice than an option

How will I go on, with all this hurt and pain

I always will, force of nature or habit, pick one

I love the kids and grandkids

How will I live without them, that’s very possible starts anew for the third time, is beyond sad

I can never get things right in my life always taking the course of highest resistance moving straight up hill forever seemingly

I just want to be a happy fellow and feel fully actualized in my life

To do so I have to build up myself created an infrastructure that has never existed

I have to create foundations pore concrete and lay down the plans for a new life and a new me that is able to be happy even if alone forever

I don’t know how I will do it all alone but I likely will have to and flourish despite the lonliness

I guess I am destined to be alone maybe it is as it should be…..

I will love myself somehow because it’s necessary.

If I don’t, then no one will…..

-aaa 9/20/21

❤️Quantumess❤️

Anthony4 Comments

If I saw you right now what would I say.

If there were song for it what would I play?

–

If time were under control how would we clock.

If music were our favorite how would we rock?

–

If light is a relative thing how do we shine.

If hearts are to hold why not mine?

–

If challenge of change makes me burn 🔥.

Is the price of wisdom worth the spurn?

–

If the heartbreak was required.

Why wasn’t she mired?

–

If love is for the all.

Why wouldn’t she fall?

–

If growth is great and fear is small.

Did you just master walking tall?

–

I think it’s worth the price of purest gold.

To perfectly align with half of a soul… ❤️

-aaa

Outfinity

Anthony7 Comments

Alone in the universe.

Starlight has gone out.

Coldness grips at the soul.

Aimlessly floating, going nowhere.

All heavenly bodies disappear.

No moons no comets, all is still.

Silence extends a cold hand concealed by darkness.

Tears drift into the expanse.

Gentle water sprays in all directions.

Cry’s sighs silenced by the vacuum of space.

-aaa