Thank You

Originally Published 04/21/2024

Thank you for teaching me what love is not

Thank you for poisoning my every thought

Thank you for continuously using me

Thank you for emotionally abusing me

Thank you for not being generous to me

Thank you for taking advantage of all that you’d see

Thank you for mental slaps with a white glove

Thank you for teaching me I had unconditional love

Thank you for showing me all your hate

Thank you for showing me my own strength and faith

Thank you for doubting my every word

Thank you for demonstrating to me the absurd

Thank you for weaponizing love and sex

Thank you for empty accounts and bouncing checks

Thank you for the emasculations you gave

Thank you for the respect you’d never save

Thank you for not being in my life

Thank you for no longer being my wife

Thank you for the dog and pony

And thank you for that alimony…

-aaa

My Inner Child

Holding My Inner Child by Lady Robin Ann

If I could hold my inner child, what would I say?

How can the words to come cross the right way?

Can I say, “I’m sorry, I know it’s been hard”

Or sing my reassurances like a medieval bard

Will the child be moved, or feel relief

Or will the suffering be more than brief

Rejections to be faced, disappointment, felt

Or those very first loves that make the heart melt

The child wants to fit in, but never will

It’s painful, forcing down to that bitter pill

The teasing and jokes you’ll have to endure

Losing that innocence, once so pure

I know it’s difficult the way you often feel

But know there’s a lot of people you’ll heal

Either with your words or just your time

A special phone call, or a published blog rhyme

You’re just unique, it’ll be OK

Because you’ll still be you at the end of the day

Strength from your experiences is what you’ll have

Be them tough, easy, happy, or sad

Never forget you’re a bright shining star

A guiding light of love for who you are…

-aaa ❤️

The End of the Beginning

You put in your best and it didn’t work out

That’s what life can be about

Loved very hard but you lost

Pondering if was worth cost

The Love you gave, and all its good

Didn’t turn out the way it should

Sleepless nights and endless tears

Trying to allay your deepest fears

Wondering what tomorrow brings

The iciest winter or warmest of springs

Look deep inside for signs of hope

On how to deal or how to cope

Then there it is a small sign at first

A hint of confidence then a burst

Remember who you used to be

Before your lesson’s history

Finding glimmers of light inside your soul

That flourished before you lost your goal

Buried away at every measure

About to recover the greatest treasure

Creative weirdness, music, and art

All your essence from the very start

Concerts friends and moments of peace

Bring what was chaos back to ease

Now you’re fully you my friend

And all your pain will come to an end

Always hit the gym and hit it hard

Venture outside your own backyard

Embrace change from all directions

And enjoy new found introspections

Don’t stress twisted time and endless sands

Your life is where it belongs, in your own hands

-aaa

Thank You

Thank you for teaching me what love is not

Thank you for poisoning my every thought

Thank you for continuously using me

Thank you for emotionally abusing me

Thank you for not being generous to me

Thank you for taking advantage of all that you’d see

Thank you for mental slaps with a white glove

Thank you for teaching me I had unconditional love

Thank you for showing me all your hate

Thank you for showing me my own strength and faith

Thank you for doubting my every word

Thank you for demonstrating to me the absurd

Thank you for weaponizing love and sex

Thank you for empty accounts and bouncing checks

Thank you for the emasculations you gave

Thank you for the respect you’d never save

Thank you for not being in my life

Thank you for no longer being my wife

Thank you for the dog and pony

And thank you for that alimony…

-aaa