Better than the rest
Left out in the heartless cold
Many neglected
Dreams are lost within shadows.
Hope flickers like a small flame.
-AAA/MAD 1/8/25
Same time last summer
Why was it a bummer
You had a deep need
That I could never feed.
–
When you said goodbye
Rivers of tears I cried
When I realized you didn’t care
I relearned that life isn’t fair.
–
I put it all on the table
But your love was a fable
Painfully knowing all too late
That to you I wasn’t great.
–
The passions we shared
Were beyond compare
Yet you took another lover
Your lies were uncovered.
–
Not my lover not my friend
Didn’t have my back in the end
It’d be easy to hope for hell
But in the end I wish you well.
-AAA 01/06/2025
Molly often felt bad
She’d rather be sad than glad.
–
Instead of a crown
She’d rather wear a frown.
–
She wears her depression like the latest fad…
-aaa
Originally Published 06/10/2024
When
I
pause and
think of you,
rain falls down my face.
All dreams of what could’ve been, cease.
Since we previously, ended badly long ago.
-AAA 12/27/2024
It’s absurdity
With what we’re left to believe
Just fake rhetoric
The truth begins to grieve now
In shadows, hope starts to fade…
AAA/MAD 12/13/24
The vacuum of space.
Is cold and without feelings.
Even your tears freeze…
-aaa
Originally Published 05/21/2024
In this time of crying.
You don’t see me there.
Gasping, choking, sighing.
Desperately, grasping for air.
–
Why did you leave me?
Where did you go?
Why must you deceive me?
I am reeling from the blow.
–
What did I do?
That wasn’t good enough.
Why weren’t you true?
This deception was rough.
–
All of your kisses.
Truly didn’t mean a thing.
My perceived hits were misses.
Hence, I was never your king.
–
I thought you were my forever.
Forever, plus a day.
In reality you were never.
Ever intending to stay.
–
First, you started ghosting.
Avoiding me in chat.
Barely responding to my posting.
You left me hard and flat.
–
You said you couldn’t love me.
When I told you “I love you”.
Your rejection, just crushed me.
At the time knowing not what I’d do.
–
So I bitterly reminisce you.
Now that you’re long gone.
And I’ll never again kiss you.
As you used me like a pawn…
-aaa
Originally Published 05/10/2024
There once was a lady from town
Whose face always wore a frown.
–
No humor or concession
Can change her complexion.
–
She looks like a sad-faced clown…
-aaa
Originally Published 05/09/2024
Sky blue you left me
Lying in an empty bed
Resting all alone.
Painful tears run down my face
For a love that never was…
-AAA/MAD 10/6/24
Drowning in sorrow
Wrapped in self-indulgent woe
Self-pity’s dark hold
Brings me down even lower
As I try to stay afloat…
-MAD/AAA 08/22/2024
Some lovers dreamt
Whilst others wept.
–
Some share their love
While others push or shove.
–
Some grow stronger
While others take longer.
–
Some find peace in each other
While some are still under cover.
–
Some live their very best lives
While others are ex husbands and wives.
–
Some linger and grow
Others lose all control.
–
Some have fun all day
While others are far away.
–
Its feast or famine
In the rules of love
People must examine
Who fits them like a glove…
-AAA 08/21/2024
Originally Published 04/29/2024
What do you do when the well runs dry? When emotions are only anger and love dies
You reach out and communicate as much as possible but nothing changes her she just doesn’t want you anymore
You better youself and try to get stronger and more attractive but it has no effect and she is not impressed at all
what can I do or say to change how she feels and lives as nothing seems to impact her demeanor or how she feels
I’d seel my soul to get her to love me like I loved her that doesn’t work either she’s moved on
We do things but they feel like bones she has to throw rather than something she wants to do
I’d rather not be an obligation to anyone
I’d rather be a choice than an option
How will I go on, with all this hurt and pain
I always will, force of nature or habit, pick one
I love the kids and grandkids
How will I live without them, that’s very possible starts anew for the third time, is beyond sad
I can never get things right in my life always taking the course of highest resistance moving straight up hill forever seemingly
I just want to be a happy fellow and feel fully actualized in my life
To do so I have to build up myself created an infrastructure that has never existed
I have to create foundations pore concrete and lay down the plans for a new life and a new me that is able to be happy even if alone forever
I don’t know how I will do it all alone but I likely will have to and flourish despite the lonliness
I guess I am destined to be alone maybe it is as it should be…..
I will love myself somehow because it’s necessary.
If I don’t, then no one will…..
-aaa 9/20/21
Permanent is happiness
Time takes recuperating
Temporary is sadness in
,healing,
In sadness is temporary
Recuperating takes time
Happiness is permanent…
-AAA 07/08/2024
Molly often felt bad
She’d rather be sad than glad.
–
Instead of a crown
She’d rather wear a frown.
–
She wears her depression like the latest fad…
-aaa
Originally Published 04/04/2024
I am lost right now.
No one can uncover me.
I’m out in plain sight.
-aaa
The vacuum of space.
Is cold and without feelings.
Even your tears freeze…
-aaa
In this time of crying.
You don’t see me there.
Gasping, choking, sighing.
Desperately, grasping for air.
–
Why did you leave me?
Where did you go?
Why must you deceive me?
I am reeling from the blow.
–
What did I do?
That wasn’t good enough.
Why weren’t you true?
This deception was rough.
–
All of your kisses.
Truly didn’t mean a thing.
My perceived hits were misses.
Hence, I was never your king.
–
I thought you were my forever.
Forever, plus a day.
In reality you were never.
Ever intending to stay.
–
First, you started ghosting.
Avoiding me in chat.
Barely responding to my posting.
You left me hard and flat.
–
You said you couldn’t love me.
When I told you “I love you”.
Your rejection, just crushed me.
At the time knowing not what I’d do.
–
So I bitterly reminisce you.
Now that you’re long gone.
And I’ll never again kiss you.
As you used me like a pawn…
-aaa
There once was a lady from town
Whose face always wore a frown.
–
No humor or concession
Can change her complexion.
–
She looks like a sad-faced clown…
-aaa
What do you do when the well runs dry? When emotions are only anger and love dies
You reach out and communicate as much as possible but nothing changes her she just doesn’t want you anymore
You better youself and try to get stronger and more attractive but it has no effect and she is not impressed at all
what can I do or say to change how she feels and lives as nothing seems to impact her demeanor or how she feels
I’d seel my soul to get her to love me like I loved her that doesn’t work either she’s moved on
We do things but they feel like bones she has to throw rather than something she wants to do
I’d rather not be an obligation to anyone
I’d rather be a choice than an option
How will I go on, with all this hurt and pain
I always will, force of nature or habit, pick one
I love the kids and grandkids
How will I live without them, that’s very possible starts anew for the third time, is beyond sad
I can never get things right in my life always taking the course of highest resistance moving straight up hill forever seemingly
I just want to be a happy fellow and feel fully actualized in my life
To do so I have to build up myself created an infrastructure that has never existed
I have to create foundations pore concrete and lay down the plans for a new life and a new me that is able to be happy even if alone forever
I don’t know how I will do it all alone but I likely will have to and flourish despite the lonliness
I guess I am destined to be alone maybe it is as it should be…..
I will love myself somehow because it’s necessary.
If I don’t, then no one will…..
-aaa 9/20/21
Could’ve had it all.
You thought you can find better.
Now that is your loss.
-aaa 💔💔
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