What do you do when the well runs dry? When emotions are only anger and love dies
You reach out and communicate as much as possible but nothing changes her she just doesn’t want you anymore
You better youself and try to get stronger and more attractive but it has no effect and she is not impressed at all
what can I do or say to change how she feels and lives as nothing seems to impact her demeanor or how she feels
I’d seel my soul to get her to love me like I loved her that doesn’t work either she’s moved on
We do things but they feel like bones she has to throw rather than something she wants to do
I’d rather not be an obligation to anyone
I’d rather be a choice than an option
How will I go on, with all this hurt and pain
I always will, force of nature or habit, pick one
I love the kids and grandkids
How will I live without them, that’s very possible starts anew for the third time, is beyond sad
I can never get things right in my life always taking the course of highest resistance moving straight up hill forever seemingly
I just want to be a happy fellow and feel fully actualized in my life
To do so I have to build up myself created an infrastructure that has never existed
I have to create foundations pore concrete and lay down the plans for a new life and a new me that is able to be happy even if alone forever
I don’t know how I will do it all alone but I likely will have to and flourish despite the lonliness
I guess I am destined to be alone maybe it is as it should be…..
I will love myself somehow because it’s necessary.
If I don’t, then no one will…..
-aaa 9/20/21
Anthony’s Crazy Love and Life Lessons in Empathy 
nice
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Thank you 😊
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The Universe works in mysterious ways. Another song that shows just how wonderful the tender at heart man is to women who truly appreciate just came on, Billy Currington, Must be Doin’ Something right…
A woman is mystery
A man just can’t understand
Sometimes all it takes to please her
Is the touch of your hand
And other times, you gotta take it slow
And hold her all night long
Heaven knows there’s so many ways
A man can go wrong
I had a macho man and he couldn’t love me back. Every time I told him I loved him, he would say, “Thank you.”
I always dreamt of living this song. Dreams do come true ya know.
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Well said and quoted ❤️😀
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Good, I’m glad you won’t be changing who you are. The world needs more nice men. Believe me, women say they want rugged, but in all reality, they want the tender man. Josh Turner sings, Your Man… Most women I know, we want a man to say to us, “I’ve been thinking ’bout this all day long, never felt a feeling quite so strong, I can’t believe how much it turns me on, just to be your man.”
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Don’t worry I won’t lol nice quote 😊
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It’s nice to meet you Mr. Empath. I think men have been dealt a bowl of muck. I think it’s way more sensual, sexy or attractive for a man to not only be entuned to his emotions, not being a “D” and not conforming to the typical guy mentality. I think more relationships would prosper if not only men took the time to feel and hear their partners needs, but women too should get off the macho band wagon and embrace their feminine sides. I think we were created with different strengths, men and women that is. We should embrace them. Just my opinion. P.S. Don’t lose your ability to be opposite of the typical man.
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I won’t it’s just difficult a lot of women want a rugged man that’s tough and not necessarily nice and I am one of the last nice guys around and I won’t don’t worry. 😊
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I totally relate. If just one person doesn’t have to suffer the same pain as I did, it’s all worth it.
A dream come true to help others through writing. To help someone through my pain and to help women avoid the abuse I suffered.
It’s nice to find someone like you, a man that is, who writes about pain from a man’s side of things. Neither sex is exempt from pain. I think that’s what I appreciate about your writing.
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I agree and it’s challenging being a guy and being an empath is never easy as it’s against societal rolls that men are supposed to have. we’re supposed to be emotionally, clueless and cold and gruff and I’m pretty much the opposite of all that.
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Your doing a great job. Similar again, it is my hope too, to get at least a thousand subscribers. I’ve heard the more we have, the better chance we have to get picked up by a House that will publish our work.
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I’m just hoping all my hard lessons can help people and touch them in a way that helps them help themselves too. That would make it all worthwhile all the hardest hardest lessons I had to endure to learn. Maybe I can save a few people a few wasted decades. That’d make mine worthwhile.
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Seems we both find comfort in telling our stories, even if we don’t share them. I hope you continue on your journey of sharing your stories, you never know who might be helped.
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That is also my hope that in sharing my feelings, good and bad, happy and sad, extremely passionate sensual, and otherwise helps other people feel the same way or recollect on events or moments that make them feel that way. That is my goal as a writer and if I can achieve that then I am doing what I was meant to do. Time will tell My to get too many thousand subscribers in here create books and share a lot of my stories of survival and strength and love. ❤️
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It helps, thank you. I still am a work in progress and I have some difficult days ahead, but I do wake up every morning with gratitude and being able to live my dream of writing, I’ll get there.
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You’re well on your way based on what you said and trust me I’m a major work in progress myself. I have a lot of writings that were from the deepest darkest parts of my soul when I was going through a lot of those dark nights of the soul while healing from these wounds that have been here a lot of my life.
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I suppose your right. Guess we both figured out how to love ourselves, at least a tad bit anway
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Keep going, a tad is a start. Keep building on that. There’s no limit to who you can be and where you can go the only thing that limits you is you. at least that’s my experience if that helps. 😀
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I can totally relate. I was married 30 years and in that time, I never loved myself enough to express that I wanted to be respected as a loving and caring wife. Instead, I allowed him to treat me as his slave in all ways of our marriage. Sadly, I had to walk away. I say sadly because me walking away hurt my sons, but if I didn’t chose me for once, well, I can say with certainty, I wouldn’t be alive today.
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See you do love yourself. It took that love of yourself to have the strength to walk away. Remember that after 30 years and I did mine with three women but the same idea about 30 years too. See you do love yourself just keep working on it. I know you got this.
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“Owning our story and loving ourselves through that process is the bravest thing that we’ll ever do.”-Brene Brown
She is one of my favorite authors and I love how she shows grace when telling us to love ourselves.
I’ve never loved myself, in fact, to this day I won’t look in a mirror more than I have too, but one day, I hope to love me, I mean, I hope to see myself the way others express their love towards me. Who knows, we’re all a work in progress.
Hugs++
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I had to learn to love myself. it was the only way I can make the exit I made out of the most toxic relationship of my entire life and then rebuild myself and my life after. It’s the key you have to learn to if you want someone to love you. You have to love yourself. Otherwise you’ll pick people who don’t love you either 30 years to figure that out, with three very toxic women…
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🤕😢🥺
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Thank you 😊
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