What’s the trait you value most about yourself?

Feelings are just like colors on a painter’s pallet. Each quite vivid and unique.

What a value most about myself is a very very double edge sword. My empathy is what I value the most about myself. It is also what I have despise the most about myself too. Many or most people throughout my life, haven’t understood what this is or how it works. Something I make it up, or other others think I’m a drama queen which I’m not. However, I really get a good read on people, and that comes in very handy and lots of situations like meetings and work and other things. Also, it helps me with my friends. I know when to say and what to say at most times because I can read them. Not 100% sometimes I make mistakes we’re all human, but my empathy does help a lot.

Any of my friends and ex spouses, etc. have never understood how this works. Some were afraid, and others thought I was just full of BS.

The hard part is most of my life going back to my young young years. I’ve had this, and there was no definition or explanation for what it was or what it meant.

Until more recently, when the terms empath or sensitive person became part of the current lexicon of our language.

It also I realize it has helped me with my writing, creating much more vivid imagery in it, as well as with my musicianship. I always seem to know the right time to come in how loud how much just by feel. I can read the music fine and I can read very well, but I can also play by feel something I couldn’t do without my empathy.

I also have love for everyone, this is often abused and taken advantage of, but all impacts really care about everybody. I think in some ways we are healers as well as storytellers and even life coaches from our mistakes.

The hard part of being an empath as you know when people are lying to you were about 100% accuracy. And I’ve seen some of the closest people to me in my life lie to my face over and over and knowing they were lying. Also, people hate you. You can feel their hate and it’s the worst.

I feel we do help a lot of people they just don’t realize it, but that’s OK. As long as we know. As challenging as it is to have this gift, I have found that it has actually assisted me and almost every aspect of my life, and I’d be blind without it. 

As always, thank you for reading.

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