
Sudden ripples of many ideas
Overwhelm a silent mind
Words, images, thoughts
Form into ideas then prose
Sometimes hands are too slow
Keeping up with a flood of creativity
Fear not, embrace tendrils of inspiration…
-AAA 01/18/2025

Sudden ripples of many ideas
Overwhelm a silent mind
Words, images, thoughts
Form into ideas then prose
Sometimes hands are too slow
Keeping up with a flood of creativity
Fear not, embrace tendrils of inspiration…
-AAA 01/18/2025

One single Kiss
Starts it all
Followed by more
As a tangled pair
Among ruffled covers
Unite in a shared passion
Together bathed in ecstasy…
-AAA 01/12/2025

Floating in the primordial gypsum of nothing
Silent without intention or any desired direction.
–
Darkness envelops as eyelids grow heavy
as deep sleep consumes consciousness
–
Awareness of only the thundering ocean
Desperately endlessly beating a shoreline
–
Troubles worries and stress melt away
With the serendipitous tide of salt water
–
Warm sea breezes waft in open windows
Beckoning in the afternoon sunlight
–
In a room sparsely large enough for a bed
Out humble narrator snores deliriously
–
I should awaken for I have much to do
But my dreams keep me in place…
-AAA 01/08/2025

Starlight beauty stunning yet refined
Her warmth and energy would not harm
–
All the hurts and pain in the world erased
With just a whisper of her soft suggestion
–
Her fierce femininity flows with her life force
Yet she is gentle and silent just now
–
Beautiful like the autumn moon
Glowing silky sunlight in her eyes
–
All the answers she has inside
If you’re brave enough to venture
–
Like Diana the huntress, she suffers no fools
With abundant cunning all in herself
–
She often runs free dancing in the breezes
Reveling in the cool soft grass underfoot
–
Obsidian skies painted in sonic cosmic dust
Softly light all sharing in their presence
–
Delay not, you must keep up with her
Before you lose her in the shadows…
-AAA 01/06/2025

I am open to change
I am 1000 times the man I used to be
I am creative and a free spirit
I am my mother and father’s son
I am creative
I am strong
I am open to change
I am a writer
I am a musician
I am grateful
I am forgiving of my past
I am an old soul
I am feelings
I am love
I am the sun of my parts
I am the product of my words not others
I am…
-AAA 01/06/2025

Your three words today are:
BLUE
BUMP
BASH
Bob’s Battered Blue Bug

Bob’s blue bug
Had a bashed bumper
Bill, a bumbling buffoon borrowed
Bored, he begged Bob like a baby
Bob broke down which was his blunder
He’s to blame balking to his friends boon
Then one bright blustery afternoon, bam!
-AAA 01/03/2025

She had been hurt so much that she wrapped her heart with barbed wire.
–
Not letting anybody close enough to love or even know her.
–
If they tried they’d be shredded up into ribbons of emotion.
–
This assures she’ll never be hurt or loved again…
-AAA 12/14/2024

Your three words today are:
DAYTIME
HOUR
PULSE
Daytime Nighttime

Daytime
Working hours
Pulse rises with responsibilities
Nighttime
Unwind and rest
Pulse lowers, relaxation begins…
-AAA 12/03/2024

Through chaos comes organization.
Everything settles back down to normal.
Sit still, quietly for a moment, you’ll see it.
Everything happens for a reason, you just need to be far away enough to see it.
Don’t worry if you can’t see the road ahead it goes in the right direction.
Be the change, light the way for everyone in the future.
Be the spark that ignites them all, aflame.
Show everyone that change is the key to everything and staying stagnant is death.
As you grow, your world will grow, and your life will grow.
Be, that, change…
-aaa
Originally Published 05/24/2024

She wanted to be pleased
So I obliged her.
–
She wanted to feel safe
So I protected her.
–
She wanted to feel love
So I loved her.
–
She wanted to be taken
So I took her.
–
She wanted to be excited
So I excited her.
–
She wanted to be delighted.
So I delighted her.
–
She wanted appreciation
So I appreciated her.
–
She wanted to relaxation
So I relaxed her.
–
She wanted to be desired
So I desired her.
–
She wanted to be admired
So I admired her.
–
She wanted peace
So I calmed her.
–
She wanted to share vulnerability
So I trusted her.
–
She wanted to be kissed
So I kissed her.
–
She wanted to be missed
So I missed her.
–
She wanted to belong
So I held her.
–
She wanted to be strong
So I strengthened her.
–
She wanted to be free
So I freed her…
-aaa
Originally Published 05/23/2024


Skies darken,
as billowy clouds
start to fill up the air.
Whites give way to grays
then blacks with green mixed in.
The rains come in torrents, hail falls, and
winds start to pick up seemingly out of nowhere.
The sirens sound and you know it’s for real.
You pray the prayer of shame,
“Please not my city, not my street, not my house”.
You hear the sound of a freight train
without any tracks near you.
Knowing what’s coming you enter your walk in closet and hunker down the best you can.
You hear it come and then go abruptly.
Fortunately, it missed your house and neighborhood.
Others, nearby, were not so lucky.
Losing all they’ve ever owned in 30 seconds.
-AAA 11/17/2024

I stand and I fall
The world is moving violently
–
I close my eyes
Everything is still moving
–
I feel myself taken by it
Caught up in the endless motion
–
It’s almost like I feel this wave
Taking me away and whirling me about
–
Nothing is still
Looking in the mirror I appear to be moving
–
Everything takes on a violent spin
All I can do is lay down and take it all in
–
Even in the quiet darkness
Everything is still moving though I lay still
–
Drifting to thankful sleep
The dizziness haunts my dreams…
-aaa
Originally Published 05/16/2024

Count very slowly.
You might discover what everything is made of.
Turquoise is beautiful in everything.
Blossoms always cheer the most weary souls of all.
Clandestinely has sealed the fate of many.
A fine line between sand and silt.
Granola goes good on anything or all by its lonesome.
-AAA 11/15/2024

Where am I?
Who am I?
What am I?
Why am I here?
How am I here?
When is now?
When is later?
When was yesterday?
Will things change?
When will they change?
Why would they change?
Should they change?
Should I change?
Why would I change?
How can I change?
Would I still be me???
-AAA 11/14/2024

I’m not too proud to admit I made mistakes.
I’m not too proud to admit I rebooted four times.
I’m not too proud to admit I changed majors three times.
I’m not too proud to admit I changed careers three times.
I’m not too proud to admit I have two divorces and a failed engagement.
I’m not too proud to admit I never had children because I chose poor mates.
I’m not too proud to admit I’m insecure.
I’m not too proud to admit I’ve had to change in every way.
I’m not too proud to admit I used people’s self loathing projected onto me to define me.
I’m not too proud to admit I don’t need a lot of people like I used to.
I’m not too proud to admit I used to be weak until I found strength inside.
I’m not too proud to admit I am me!!!
-AAA 11/10/2024

What secrets does the wind hold?
I doubt if we’ll ever know.
Maybe that’s for the best.
Find peace in nature’s mystery.
Revel in her intricate details and beauty.
For even in the presence of deep despair,
Nature’s majesty is there for us all…
-AAA 11/02/2024

Chevron tiled floor.
Strobe lights flash.
The sound of jazz fills the air.
Flowing red curtains.
A short man from a far away place, dances.
Woman in a black dress whispers in an ear.
Clues unfold to an unthinkable murder of a homecoming queen…
-AAA 10/15/2024

Suddenly she’s upon me.
I can hear her softly breathing.
Fast and steady her breath is her want
And I will satisfy each and more.
It’s dark but I can make the outlines
of her face and body as she straddles me.
She kisses me with the passion of a starving person receiving a hearty meal.
I return her kisses in kind and kiss her neck.
Flames of mutual desire ignite and rage on all night…
-AAA 10/07/2024

She glows like glycerine sunshine.
Lighting up any room as she enters.
The radiance is almost blinding.
So much beauty one can barely stand it.
An angel among us mortals.
Fortunately she doesn’t know this.
And her modesty a refreshing taste of sunshine.
Warmth from her smile could thaw the Arctic.
My words do not do her any justice…
AAA 09/08/2024

Your three words today are:
BODY
CADAVER
CORPSE
Breakup

Corpse of a relationship.
The cadaver that was love.
Like a body, it all lies dead on the floor.
-AAA 09/02/2024
A magical new weekly writing opportunity from Jenne Gray and C. E. Ayr.
The rules are:
Maximum of 250 words.
Inspired by photo prompt below.
That’s it.

One Lone Goalie Stands Fast
Standing alone on the damp green turf.
Nighttime arrives as the steady darkness is abated only by the stadiums lights.
A large crowd situated around these proceedings.
The dampness makes the warm evening humid, adding to the tension of the spectacle unfolding.
Near the lights, thousands of small dancing things are drawn and strewn about.
Oddly (for the figure standing on the field) the strong scent of popcorn, nachos, and hotdogs fills the air.
The spectators enjoy a veritable orgy of outrageously priced junk food.
Consumed with an almost fierce desperation as they root for their favorite team.
Athletes kick and chase a hexagonal patterned ball up and down the field.
For the moment, he lets out a sigh of relief as his counterpart defends a small patch of earth.
This respite will be short lived as already the ball has passed midfield and is heading towards his goal.
Nothing will get through.
He will dive and land horribly to assure a nil score for his opponents.
A night in the life of a goalie…
-AAA 08/23/2024
176 words:

Originally Published 04/28/2024

Recollecting the pasts loves of my life
I mediate and I close my eyes
I can see myself through their eyes
All the love that wasn’t reciprocated
All the deceit and manipulation
And then it hits me like a ton of bricks
They never saw me at all
They never truly knew me we or wanted to
They only knew what they needed and saw me as a means to get there
Knowing is empowerment
I’ll choose better, smarter next time…
-aaa ❤️

I cannot tell where I begin and where you end.
Our souls are so close they merge together.
Eyes closed no words yet we speak in the silence.
I can read every nuance of being and mine is also known.
Nothing is unspoken between us as we share everything.
Our worlds collide and merge into one.
An infinite universe just between two people.
The synergy we share is powerful and cannot/will not be denied…
-AAA 08/19/2024
Originally Published 04/26/2024

From the deepest depths of my soul there is a single small light.
This is the beginning, a long road to make it grow from an ember to a fierce blaze.
Tread lightly and cry as much as you can.
Your heart is rebooting, bare with the pain the burning and the radiating tingles.
I swear it’s going to be better than alright faster than you think.
You face your pain you invite it you bask as swim in it.
This processes and heals you and fast it’s just very hard and very intense.
You’re doing it, I don’t know but this is a rebirth. Hang on and keep going!
-aaa
Originally Published 04/28/2024

Strength rises from within
Providing ease in adversity
Malleable to change and experience
Strong enough to withstand the fires of life
Redefining importance and priority
Easing the pain of the past letting old wounds heal
Becoming a center stone in your life age in the lives of others
Sharing your failures to help others find the path
Swelling with pride inside overcoming obstacles
Realizing you can have what you want
Manifesting a life you always wanted in every way
Continuing the work to become a better you
Rediscovering who you are and were meant to be
Be your own success story
Transform your life until there’s no recognition
Unburden yourself except your limits and mistakes
No one or nothing will stop you except you…
-aaa 🔥🔥

Your three words today are:
HANDLE
STICK
POLE
Slalom King

He handled the slalom like a champ.
Using his sticks to ski around every pole.
One day he will stand on a podium for a medal of sorts.
Everyone has a dream, and this is his dream…
-AAA 08/15/2024
Originally Published 04/26/2024

Alone in the universe.
Starlight has gone out.
Coldness grips at the soul.
Aimlessly floating, going nowhere.
All heavenly bodies disappear.
No moons no comets, all is still.
Silence extends a cold hand concealed by darkness.
Tears drift into the expanse.
Gentle water sprays in all directions.
Cry’s sighs silenced by the vacuum of space.
-aaa

Spark pop, electricity, boom!!!!
Smoke and a flash and voila!
There it is, a lightbulb an idea a concept.
Something unique different wild crazy original.
Make people think more importantly, feel.
Try and evoke memories of pain or happiness.
Or be cute, funny, and creative.
Be passionate and powerful
The genius of new and exciting things, starts with you…
-AAA 08/10/2024
Originally Published 03/28/2024

soft beckoning fingers translucent blue greet me in the bright sunlight
–
cooling hot feet and instantly refreshing an overtaxed weary soul
–
gulls squeal overhead looking for something yummy or unguarded
–
opaque shapes don’t hide the sun as the warm breezes gently kiss
–
suddenly I inhale an entire grove of coconuts and she’s there
–
laying on a blanket bikini laden dark soft skin drinking up the sunlight
–
refreshment of her design in hand complete with umbrella and ice
–
sporting Jackie-O sunglasses and enjoying all life has to offer
–
legs trim and long and strong and beautiful bringing my mind to a place where pain doesn’t exist
–
she smiles a wry smile at me and as usual challenges me, I feel the shock as the cold water laps up my ankles
–
stepping ever forward I am washed in the spray of soft white foam the smoothly caresses my arms and legs as I enter
–
I duck and dodge a behemoth of a wave just as an airplane flies overhead affixed to the back, car insurance ads
–
it’s up to my neck now, be careful, many drown here that are younger and fresher
–
a helicopter juts by and I wave that I am ok as a wave slaps my face with its cold fingers
–
that slapped burned as the salt water swirls in my mouth and I spit it out
–
kelp, seaweed, aliens I am unsure what this stuff is but it entangles me just as the woman on the shore did
–
I grab a handful and chuck it away and await its magic re-emergence
–
I turn to shore and head in the direction of the woman as her coconut essence calls out to me
–
a warm smile greets me and warm lips as well just as a gentle ocean wind catches us both enveloping us
–
contentedness without limit, warmth without cold and desire without rejection…
–
The beach calls us all into her soft sensual arms.
-aaa

She wouldn’t inflate his ego.
It just wasn’t her to be that kind.
She’d rather see him fall down.
As flat on his face as possible.
–
She wouldn’t let a single soul talk down to him
At the first word, she was a furious defender.
He mistook this for love and care.
In reality, putting him down was only her indulgence, and no one else’s.
–
She wouldn’t be intimate with him, ever.
She’d give every excuse from fibromyalgia to menopause.
He felt she was simply only attracted to his money.
He was right because she saved all her intimacy for her ex husband.
–
She’d instigate many fights at the expense of his dignity.
She’d mercilessly push him to his tipping point.
Then get mad at him for his reaction to her barrage of incendiary statements.
Then when he’d walk away to end the argument, she’d fire off another volley, a parting shot, “go pout”.
–
She didn’t care whether he lived or died.
His illnesses and complications from Diabetes were his problem.
Any symptoms or issue he experienced was all in his head.
She had the bedside manner of steel wool and the warmth to match.
–
Even when he left her she refused to be human.
Using the Ex grandchildren as weapons in her arsenal of cruelty.
She fought him tooth and nail for alimony.
Until he relented and paid her, a worthy price at any amount to be put of her life forever.
-08/04/2024
Originally Published 04/26/2024

Become the wind
Moving and changing everything with a burst of energy
Flowing effortlessly with the breeze
Trees welcomely wave their tendrils
Floating lighter than air
Taking flight high above the earth
Warm updrafts lifting off
A gentle gust among a gale
Nothing is ever truly lost…
-aaa

The cold hand of degradation
Grabs tightly in a choking grip
Bringing many down
Enveloping us in hopelessness
Nothing we attempt seems to come together
The only means of escape
Is our own mettle and strength
We must rise up and follow our truth
Violently tearing down all walls we build
Letting the energy of positivity flow in
Only then can we ascend to a higher level
Where no one or nothing can ever reduce us again…
-AAA 07/30/2024

Your three words today are:
SOLITARY
HUGE
HUNGER
Wire Walking Adventures

For a solitary moment
The high wire walker drew huge gasps
Briefly stumbling as he went forward
There was a hunger in the crowd
Some, I think, wanted him to fall
Others, wanted a safe passage
In the end, all were satisfied
He made it all the way across
And tripped on his way to his car…
-AAA 07/29/2024

Falling into a deep bottomless chasm
Reaching for something to slow the fall
But they’re is nothing to grab but words
So I use my words as I fall
“acceptance” “no self loathing” “ you got this”
Life at times is a big drop into nothingness
We just have be true to who we are
Then eventually landing safely on our feet
Smarter and better for the journey
Albeit more of a thrill ride than a jaunt in time and space…
-AAA 07/27/2024
Originally Published 04/22/2024

Have a plan, carry it out.
Have I idea, make it happen.
Have a passion, fulfill it.
Have a desire, bring it to fruition.
Have a poem, emotionally charge its words.
Have an analogy, make it like no other.
Have a goal, exceed it every time.
Have a want, see it happen first.
Have a notion, follow your instincts.
Have a love, treat it like the diamond it is.
Have a mother, love her and her lessons of love.
Have a backup plan, and never get caught unawares.
Have a father, follow his lead and example with respect.
Have an understanding, feed it with knowledge.
Have a history, fill it with experience and perspective.
Have a sister, protect her and support her.
Have a brother, share in his trials and tribulations.
Have a godmother, never let her go she will show you heaven.
Have a life, maintain it with good habits.
Have a body, treat it like a temple lest it fails.
Have a heart, always follow and feed it.
Have a feeling, recognize its source and significance.
Have a hunger, always feed it properly.
Have it all, your persistence will pay off in the end.
-aaa
Originally Published 04/14/2024

The right one is just like home a safe harbor to anchor your life.
The right one will see, greatness that you
will eventually come to know for yourself.
The right one will help you unlock the doors that you thought could never be opened.
The right one will help you ignite that spark that somewhere long ago you thought you’d lost forever.
The right one will know what to say when you need to hear it no matter how difficult.
The right one will share grow and touch your deepest thoughts meeting them with their own.
The right one will understand without question and with heartfelt compassion.
The right one will see your weaknesses and help you overcome them.
The right one will help you transcend your most difficult traumas.
The right one sees your potential and shortcomings and sticks with you even if you repeatedly fall or fail.
The right one will take your tears for strength and purify them for you.
The right one will forever transform your perceptions and life itself.
The right one will bring you back to the self you were meant to be…
-aaa ❤️❤️
Originally Published 04/09/2024

Falling in space, we all are, at many miles an hour.
A spec a dot a piece of the universe.
Falling faster and faster and faster.
Don’t look back just keep going.
We’re all falling together in concert.
No reason no purpose just gravity.
Don’t be afraid it’s a great expanse of emptiness.
But you’re not alone you’e in good company.
Close your eyes feel the speed rush by.
Trust in yourself let your instincts take over.
You are significant don’t even question it!
-aaa

I am asserting the mastery of my real self!!!
There is nothing to do it is already done.
There is nothing to be, I already am.
There is nothing to have it is already mine.
There is nothing to prove it is already proven .
There is nowhere to rush, I am already here.
There is nothing to fix, I am already whole.
-AAA 04/15/2022

We do exist, we’re all standing right here, right now.
Feeling like we’re invisible or out of view in plain sight.
The nonconformists, the unique, the different, the creative.
We don’t quite fit into any mold yet here we are.
This is my tribe my clan these are my people.
Many artists, musicians, writers, highly creative people.
We feel more than most, and we have to live with it.
It’s difficult to articulate how it feels to be different because we all want to belong.
But, we do belong to our own weird oddly dysfunctional group.
We make the stars burn a little brighter.
The flora and fauna a little prettier.
And the universe more filled with wonderment.
We feel therefore we all exist…
-AAA 07/02/2024

She was a shattered woman, broken, destroyed by her childhood trauma.
Wearing her sadness like a widow’s black vail.
Her never-ending tears often fell and she was comfortless.
She’d hibernate for hours or even days.
Ever marinating in her self-doubt and loathing.
She occasionally contemplated taking her life and it frightened me.
Some forms of darkness cannot allow any light in, like wooden shutters closed during the daylight.
She couldn’t love me, she wasn’t capable.
So I loved for us both but that wasn’t unsustainable and was infinitely exhausting.
It took a tole on my soul and health, nearly destroying me in the process.
Her sudden and unexpected infidelities ended us and our ten year relationship.
Which shockingly hollowed me out inside.
Hard lessons learned, no matter how much you love someone, you cannot make them love themselves, let alone you…
-aaa

Flames lick and engulf all around them.
Consuming all, as every object is, fuel.
Lifetimes of riches saved, stored, and destroyed in an instant.
Huge write, black gray tendrils rise in every direction from the commotion.
Smoke choked ash falls, as a rainfall of death.
All covered, ghostly-white grays and blacks.
Smells of smoke dirt and all the melted.
Lungs hurt and strain, with stinging and coughing.
Eyes burn and tear up in a foggy haze of the charred aftermath.
Many of the bravest humans, rush toward and into the flames to save all they can.
Brief victories aren’t celebrated huge losses mount up.
How long will this hell last when will the fire’s hearty appetite be satisfied???
One house more? One more teddy bear erased?
Many people suffer the grief of egregious loss and its endless misery.
The evil of hopelessness tries to set in.
Waiting among all evacuated, pondering and praying over losing everything.
The hopeful wish, with their might, for a pouring rain to douse all of the hellfire…
–

I’m
Diluted
Like
Adding
Water
To
A
Sauce.
Diminished
Reduced
Less
Or
Watered
Down.
That’s
What
Narcissistic
People
Do
To
Our
Spirit.
Leave
Them
Where
You
Find
Them…
-aaa

Words serve a purpose
Purpose to move people
People who are everything in the world
World wide peace is what I want to see
Seeing is truly believing in actions
Actions display our true nature
Nature is what doing what feels right
Right is the opposite of wrong
Wronging others is not an option
Options are one of many choices
Choices made determine direction
Direction is how we go about moving
Moving towards our lives desires
Desires are powerful wants
Wants are what we’d like in life
Life is what we make of it until its end
End of this poem…
-aaa

Through chaos comes organization.
–
Everything settles back down to normal.
–
Sit still, quietly for a moment, you’ll see it.
–
Everything happens for a reason, you just need to be far away enough to see it.
–
Don’t worry if you can’t see the road ahead it goes in the right direction.
–
Be the change, light the way for everyone in the future.
–
Be the spark that ignites them all, aflame.
–
Show everyone that change is the key to everything and staying stagnant is death.
–
As you grow, your world will grow, and your life will grow.
–
Be, that, change…
-aaa
Today’s Word of the day is Captivated.
FOWC with Fandango — Captivated
She was Beauty

She stood before me wearing nothing but her gumption.
–
I was captivated by her beauty.
–
My eyes had a heart attack.
–
I forced a gulp back down my throat.
–
I quickly replaced the breath that was taken away.
–
She was here for me now, as vulnerable as anyone could ever be.
–
My heart leaped in my chest.
–
Being a poet, and an author, I tried to find the right words to say.
–
The only words I could put together were “you are beauty” as I stuttered them aloud…
-aaa
Today’s Word of the day is Incense.
The Church


The fragrant memory of incense filled the church.
–
Red lit candles of prayer dotted the tables in front of an enormous alter.
–
A large figure of Christ with an enormous window showing the beautiful desert outside.
–
Quiet whispers of person’s thoughtful well wishes for others.
–
Some people call this place God’s House.
–
The vibe is definitely warm with much softer light and volume in between services.
–
The confessional rooms vacant with no light on the door or line of awaiting sinners.
–
The view from this house of God is stunning as it was built into a mountain.
–
The flora and fauna of Sedona painted desert share their beauty.
–
Truly, the nicest church I’ve ever visited.
-aaa

She wanted to be pleased
So I obliged her.
–
She wanted to feel safe
So I protected her.
–
She wanted to feel love
So I loved her.
–
She wanted to be taken
So I took her.
–
She wanted to be excited
So I excited her.
–
She wanted to be delighted.
So I delighted her.
–
She wanted appreciation
So I appreciated her.
–
She wanted to relaxation
So I relaxed her.
–
She wanted to be desired
So I desired her.
–
She wanted to be admired
So I admired her.
–
She wanted peace
So I calmed her.
–
She wanted to share vulnerability
So I trusted her.
–
She wanted to be kissed
So I kissed her.
–
She wanted to be missed
So I missed her.
–
She wanted to belong
So I held her.
–
She wanted to be strong
So I strengthened her.
–
She wanted to be free
So I freed her…
-aaa

Three Things Challenge #M701 | pensitivity101
Today’s three things challenge our poem to include one more of the following words:
ASHEN
PALE
COLOURLESS
Death’s Ashen Face
Her face was colorless and pale.
Her skin, ashen and cool to the touch.
–
She lay in the box her eyes were closed.
Her hands perfectly folded on her chest.
–
Hands folded softly together as if in prayer.
They’d never move from that position.
–
Her face and body were gauntly thin.
The disease that took her life took the rest of her long before.
She had been my favorite aunt, godmother, and most important person in my life.
Now, all that remained was an empty shell
Of the person I had known from birth to age 32.
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It wasn’t enough time not nearly enough.
And all I have now are memories.
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I have registered several angry complaints with Universe.
But alas, nothing has or will change, she’s gone.
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The funny thing about grief, it never ever ends.
You just integrate it into your everyday life.
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These nearly 20 years she’s been gone still hurt like it was yesterday.
Some of the best parts of my heart are and soul buried with her to this day…
-aaa

You displace your anger and frustration all over me. Why? Does it make you feel better to kick me in the teeth.
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Apparently it does. Whatever eases you, my friend.
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We’ve known each other now for how long? Thirty-nine years and you never change.
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It’s always what you feel and what you know And anything falls outside of that bothers you, including me.
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So rather than let me be me it bothers you. So you have to cut me down and make me change into something to conform and contort into another shape.
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You label me a sheep among wolves. Do you really know me that well?
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I’ve opened up to you and told you more than I told almost anyone. And yet, you still hold me in such contempt.
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I think it would hurt me except, I just don’t fit into the mold that you want
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Yeah, you try to group me in with all these other morons. Because it makes it easier for you more palpable.
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You get me angry to get me to react. That’s totally gaslighting. Then you get on my case for being mad.
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I wonder if you even know that you’re doing it? I don’t think you do I think you do it unconsciously.
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Well, I’m sure after this exchange we won’t talk for weeks, or months, or ever. But I will never standby and let you trash me ever again…
-aaa

I stand and I fall
The world is moving violently
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I close my eyes
Everything is still moving
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I feel myself taken by it
Caught up in the endless motion
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It’s almost like I feel this wave
Taking me away and whirling me about
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Nothing is still
Looking in the mirror I appear to be moving
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Everything takes on a violent spin
All I can do is lay down and take it all in
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Even in the quiet darkness
Everything is still moving though I lay still
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Drifting to thankful sleep
The dizziness haunts my dreams…
-aaa