Beachside Villa Nap

Floating in the primordial gypsum of nothing

Silent without intention or any desired direction.

Darkness envelops as eyelids grow heavy 

as deep sleep consumes consciousness 

Awareness of only the thundering ocean 

Desperately endlessly beating a shoreline

Troubles worries and stress melt away 

With the serendipitous tide of salt water

Warm sea breezes waft in open windows 

Beckoning in the afternoon sunlight

In a room sparsely large enough for a bed 

Out humble narrator snores deliriously 

I should awaken for I have much to do

But my dreams keep me in place…

-AAA 01/08/2025

Fierce Beauty 

Starlight beauty stunning yet refined 

Her warmth and energy would not harm 

All the hurts and pain in the world erased

With just a whisper of her soft suggestion

Her fierce femininity flows with her life force 

Yet she is gentle and silent just now

Beautiful like the autumn moon

Glowing silky sunlight in her eyes

All the answers she has inside 

If you’re brave enough to venture

Like Diana the huntress, she suffers no fools 

With abundant cunning all in herself

She often runs free dancing in the breezes

Reveling in the cool soft grass underfoot

Obsidian skies painted in sonic cosmic dust 

Softly light all sharing in their presence

Delay not, you must keep up with her

Before you lose her in the shadows…

-AAA 01/06/2025

I Am

I am open to change 

I am 1000 times the man I used to be 

I am creative and a free spirit

I am my mother and father’s son 

I am creative 

I am strong

I am open to change

I am a writer

I am a musician

I am grateful

I am forgiving of my past

I am an old soul

I am feelings

I am love

I am the sun of my parts

I am the product of my words not others 

I am…

-AAA 01/06/2025

Entropy Works

Through chaos comes organization.

Everything settles back down to normal.

Sit still, quietly for a moment, you’ll see it.

Everything happens for a reason, you just need to be far away enough to see it.

Don’t worry if you can’t see the road ahead it goes in the right direction.

Be the change, light the way for everyone in the future.

Be the spark that ignites them all, aflame.

Show everyone that change is the key to everything and staying stagnant is death.

As you grow, your world will grow, and your life will grow.

Be, that, change…

-aaa

Originally Published 05/24/2024

She Wanted…

She wanted to be pleased

So I obliged her.

She wanted to feel safe

So I protected her.

She wanted to feel love

So I loved her.

She wanted to be taken

So I took her.

She wanted to be excited

So I excited her.

She wanted to be delighted.

So I delighted her.

She wanted appreciation

So I appreciated her.

She wanted to relaxation

So I relaxed her.

She wanted to be desired

So I desired her.

She wanted to be admired

So I admired her.

She wanted peace

So I calmed her.

She wanted to share vulnerability

So I trusted her.

She wanted to be kissed

So I kissed her.

She wanted to be missed

So I missed her.

She wanted to belong

So I held her.

She wanted to be strong

So I strengthened her.

She wanted to be free

So I freed her…

-aaa

Originally Published 05/23/2024

Tornado!

Moore, OK Tornado Stock News Footage 05/03/1999
Moore, OK Tornado Stock News Footage 05/03/1999

Skies darken,

                    as billowy clouds 

                start to fill up the air.

           Whites give way to grays 

       then blacks with green mixed in.

The rains come in torrents, hail falls, and 

winds start to pick up seemingly out of nowhere.

The sirens sound and you know it’s for real.

             You pray the prayer of shame,

“Please not my city, not my street, not my house”.

        You hear the sound of a freight train 

                without any tracks near you.

Knowing what’s coming you enter your walk in closet and hunker down the best you can.

      You hear it come and then go abruptly.

Fortunately, it missed your house and neighborhood.

          Others, nearby, were not so lucky.

Losing all they’ve ever owned in 30 seconds.

-AAA 11/17/2024

Vertigo

I stand and I fall

The world is moving violently

I close my eyes

Everything is still moving

I feel myself taken by it

Caught up in the endless motion

It’s almost like I feel this wave

Taking me away and whirling me about

Nothing is still

Looking in the mirror I appear to be moving

Everything takes on a violent spin

All I can do is lay down and take it all in

Even in the quiet darkness

Everything is still moving though I lay still

Drifting to thankful sleep

The dizziness haunts my dreams…

-aaa

Originally Published 05/16/2024

I’m Not Too Proud To Admit…

I’m not too proud to admit I made mistakes. 

I’m not too proud to admit I rebooted four times.

I’m not too proud to admit I changed majors three times.

I’m not too proud to admit I changed careers three times.

I’m not too proud to admit I have two divorces and a failed engagement.

I’m not too proud to admit I never had children because I chose poor mates. 

I’m not too proud to admit I’m insecure.

I’m not too proud to admit I’ve had to change in every way.

I’m not too proud to admit I used people’s self loathing projected onto me to define me.

I’m not too proud to admit I don’t need a lot of people like I used to.

I’m not too proud to admit I used to be weak until I found strength inside.

I’m not too proud to admit I am me!!!

-AAA 11/10/2024

No Words Just Actions 

Suddenly she’s upon me.

I can hear her softly breathing.

Fast and steady her breath is her want 

And I will satisfy each and more. 

It’s dark but I can make the outlines 

of her face and body as she straddles me.

She kisses me with the passion of a starving person receiving a hearty meal. 

I return her kisses in kind and kiss her neck.

Flames of mutual desire ignite and rage on all night…

-AAA 10/07/2024

MADE OF LOVE

She glows like glycerine sunshine.

Lighting up any room as she enters.

The radiance is almost blinding.

So much beauty one can barely stand it.

An angel among us mortals.

Fortunately she doesn’t know this.

And her modesty a refreshing taste of sunshine.

Warmth from her smile could thaw the Arctic.

My words do not do her any justice…

AAA 09/08/2024

Unicorn Challenge 23rd August

A magical new weekly writing opportunity from Jenne Gray and C. E. Ayr.

The rules are:

Maximum of 250 words.

Inspired by photo prompt below.

That’s it.

One Lone Goalie Stands Fast

Standing alone on the damp green turf.

Nighttime arrives as the steady darkness is abated only by the stadiums lights.

A large crowd situated around these proceedings.

The dampness makes the warm evening humid, adding to the tension of the spectacle unfolding.

Near the lights, thousands of small dancing things are drawn and strewn about. 

Oddly (for the figure standing on the field) the strong scent of popcorn, nachos, and hotdogs fills the air.

The spectators enjoy a veritable orgy of outrageously priced junk food.

Consumed with an almost fierce desperation as they root for their favorite team.

Athletes kick and chase a hexagonal patterned ball up and down the field.

For the moment, he lets out a sigh of relief as his counterpart defends a small patch of earth. 

This respite will be short lived as already the  ball has passed midfield and is heading towards his goal. 

Nothing will get through.

He will dive and land horribly to assure a nil score for his opponents. 

A night in the life of a goalie…

-AAA 08/23/2024

176 words:

Hard Truths

Originally Published 04/28/2024

Recollecting the pasts loves of my life

I mediate and I close my eyes

I can see myself through their eyes

All the love that wasn’t reciprocated

All the deceit and manipulation

And then it hits me like a ton of bricks

They never saw me at all

They never truly knew me we or wanted to

They only knew what they needed and saw me as a means to get there

Knowing is empowerment

I’ll choose better, smarter next time…

-aaa ❤️

Spellbound…

I cannot tell where I begin and where you end.

Our souls are so close they merge together.

Eyes closed no words yet we speak in the silence.

I can read every nuance of being and mine is also known.

Nothing is unspoken between us as we share everything.

Our worlds collide and merge into one.

An infinite universe just between two people.

The synergy we share is powerful and cannot/will not be denied…

-AAA 08/19/2024

Rebuilding

Originally Published 04/26/2024

From the deepest depths of my soul there is a single small light.

This is the beginning, a long road to make it grow from an ember to a fierce blaze.

Tread lightly and cry as much as you can.

Your heart is rebooting, bare with the pain the burning and the radiating tingles.

I swear it’s going to be better than alright faster than you think.

You face your pain you invite it you bask as swim in it.

This processes and heals you and fast it’s just very hard and very intense.

You’re doing it, I don’t know but this is a rebirth. Hang on and keep going!

-aaa

Fulcrum

Originally Published 04/28/2024

Strength rises from within

Providing ease in adversity

Malleable to change and experience

Strong enough to withstand the fires of life

Redefining importance and priority

Easing the pain of the past letting old wounds heal

Becoming a center stone in your life age in the lives of others

Sharing your failures to help others find the path

Swelling with pride inside overcoming obstacles

Realizing you can have what you want

Manifesting a life you always wanted in every way

Continuing the work to become a better you

Rediscovering who you are and were meant to be

Be your own success story

Transform your life until there’s no recognition

Unburden yourself except your limits and mistakes

No one or nothing will stop you except you…

-aaa 🔥🔥

Outfinity

Originally Published 04/26/2024

Alone in the universe.

Starlight has gone out.

Coldness grips at the soul.

Aimlessly floating, going nowhere.

All heavenly bodies disappear.

No moons no comets, all is still.

Silence extends a cold hand concealed by darkness.

Tears drift into the expanse.

Gentle water sprays in all directions.

Cry’s sighs silenced by the vacuum of space.

-aaa

Inspiration 

Spark pop, electricity, boom!!!! 

Smoke and a flash and voila!

There it is, a lightbulb an idea a concept.

Something unique different wild crazy original.

Make people think more importantly, feel.

Try and evoke memories of pain or happiness.

Or be cute, funny, and creative.

Be passionate and powerful 

The genius of new and exciting things, starts with you…

-AAA 08/10/2024

Ocean Warmth

Originally Published 03/28/2024

soft beckoning fingers translucent blue greet me in the bright sunlight

cooling hot feet and instantly refreshing an overtaxed weary soul

gulls squeal overhead looking for something yummy or unguarded

opaque shapes don’t hide the sun as the warm breezes gently kiss

suddenly I inhale an entire grove of coconuts and she’s there

laying on a blanket bikini laden dark soft skin drinking up the sunlight

refreshment of her design in hand complete with umbrella and ice

sporting Jackie-O sunglasses and enjoying all life has to offer

legs trim and long and strong and beautiful bringing my mind to a place where pain doesn’t exist

she smiles a wry smile at me and as usual challenges me, I feel the shock as the cold water laps up my ankles

stepping ever forward I am washed in the spray of soft white foam the smoothly caresses my arms and legs as I enter

I duck and dodge a behemoth of a wave just as an airplane flies overhead affixed to the back, car insurance ads

it’s up to my neck now, be careful, many drown here that are younger and fresher

a helicopter juts by and I wave that I am ok as a wave slaps my face with its cold fingers

that slapped burned as the salt water swirls in my mouth and I spit it out

kelp, seaweed, aliens I am unsure what this stuff is but it entangles me just as the woman on the shore did

I grab a handful and chuck it away and await its magic re-emergence

I turn to shore and head in the direction of the woman as her coconut essence calls out to me

a warm smile greets me and warm lips as well just as a gentle ocean wind catches us both enveloping us

contentedness without limit, warmth without cold and desire without rejection…

The beach calls us all into her soft sensual arms.

-aaa

Married and Divorced to Ms Cruelty

She wouldn’t inflate his ego.

It just wasn’t her to be that kind.

She’d rather see him fall down.

As flat on his face as possible.

She wouldn’t let a single soul talk down to him

At the first word, she was a furious defender.

He mistook this for love and care.

In reality, putting him down was only her indulgence, and no one else’s.

She wouldn’t be intimate with him, ever.

She’d give every excuse from fibromyalgia to menopause.

He felt she was simply only attracted to his money.

He was right because she saved all her intimacy for her ex husband.

She’d instigate many fights at the expense of his dignity.

She’d mercilessly push him to his tipping point.

Then get mad at him for his reaction to her barrage of incendiary statements.

Then when he’d walk away to end the argument, she’d fire off another volley, a parting shot, “go pout”.

She didn’t care whether he lived or died.

His illnesses and complications from Diabetes were his problem.

Any symptoms or issue he experienced was all in his head.

She had the bedside manner of steel wool and the warmth to match.

Even when he left her she refused to be human.

Using the Ex grandchildren as weapons in her arsenal of cruelty.

She fought him tooth and nail for alimony.

Until he relented and paid her, a worthy price at any amount to be put of her life forever.

-08/04/2024

Air

Originally Published 04/26/2024

Become the wind

Moving and changing everything with a burst of energy

Flowing effortlessly with the breeze

Trees welcomely wave their tendrils

Floating lighter than air

Taking flight high above the earth

Warm updrafts lifting off

A gentle gust among a gale

Nothing is ever truly lost…

-aaa

Rise Above Degradation

The cold hand of degradation

Grabs tightly in a choking grip

Bringing many down

Enveloping us in hopelessness

Nothing we attempt seems to come together

The only means of escape

Is our own mettle and strength

We must rise up and follow our truth

Violently tearing down all walls we build

Letting the energy of positivity flow in

Only then can we ascend to a higher level

Where no one or nothing can ever reduce us again…

-AAA 07/30/2024

Smart Free Fall To Greatness

Falling into a deep bottomless chasm

Reaching for something to slow the fall

But they’re is nothing to grab but words

So I use my words as I fall

“acceptance” “no self loathing” “ you got this”

Life at times is a big drop into nothingness

We just have be true to who we are

Then eventually landing safely on our feet

Smarter and better for the journey

Albeit more of a thrill ride than a jaunt in time and space…

-AAA 07/27/2024

HAVE

Originally Published 04/22/2024

Have a plan, carry it out.

Have I idea, make it happen.

Have a passion, fulfill it.

Have a desire, bring it to fruition.

Have a poem, emotionally charge its words.

Have an analogy, make it like no other.

Have a goal, exceed it every time.

Have a want, see it happen first.

Have a notion, follow your instincts.

Have a love, treat it like the diamond it is.

Have a mother, love her and her lessons of love.

Have a backup plan, and never get caught unawares.

Have a father, follow his lead and example with respect.

Have an understanding, feed it with knowledge.

Have a history, fill it with experience and perspective.

Have a sister, protect her and support her.

Have a brother, share in his trials and tribulations.

Have a godmother, never let her go she will show you heaven.

Have a life, maintain it with good habits.

Have a body, treat it like a temple lest it fails.

Have a heart, always follow and feed it.

Have a feeling, recognize its source and significance.

Have a hunger, always feed it properly.

Have it all, your persistence will pay off in the end.

-aaa

The Right One

Originally Published 04/14/2024

The right one is just like home a safe harbor to anchor your life.

The right one will see, greatness that you

will eventually come to know for yourself.

The right one will help you unlock the doors that you thought could never be opened.

The right one will help you ignite that spark that somewhere long ago you thought you’d lost forever.

The right one will know what to say when you need to hear it no matter how difficult.

The right one will share grow and touch your deepest thoughts meeting them with their own.

The right one will understand without question and with heartfelt compassion.

The right one will see your weaknesses and help you overcome them.

The right one will help you transcend your most difficult traumas.

The right one sees your potential and shortcomings and sticks with you even if you repeatedly fall or fail.

The right one will take your tears for strength and purify them for you.

The right one will forever transform your perceptions and life itself.

The right one will bring you back to the self you were meant to be…

-aaa ❤️❤️

Controlled Chaos

Originally Published 04/09/2024

Falling in space, we all are, at many miles an hour.

A spec a dot a piece of the universe.

Falling faster and faster and faster.

Don’t look back just keep going.

We’re all falling together in concert.

No reason no purpose just gravity.

Don’t be afraid it’s a great expanse of emptiness.

But you’re not alone you’e in good company.

Close your eyes feel the speed rush by.

Trust in yourself let your instincts take over.

You are significant don’t even question it!

-aaa

The Mastery of, Me

I am asserting the mastery of my real self!!!

There is nothing to do it is already done.

There is nothing to be, I already am.

There is nothing to have it is already mine.

There is nothing to prove it is already proven .

There is nowhere to rush, I am already here.

There is nothing to fix, I am already whole.

-AAA 04/15/2022

We Feel Therefore We Exist

We do exist, we’re all standing right here, right now.

Feeling like we’re invisible or out of view in plain sight.

The nonconformists, the unique, the different, the creative.

We don’t quite fit into any mold yet here we are.

This is my tribe my clan these are my people.

Many artists, musicians, writers, highly creative people.

We feel more than most, and we have to live with it.

It’s difficult to articulate how it feels to be different because we all want to belong.

But, we do belong to our own weird oddly dysfunctional group.

We make the stars burn a little brighter.

The flora and fauna a little prettier.

And the universe more filled with wonderment.

We feel therefore we all exist…

-AAA 07/02/2024

Shattered

She was a shattered woman, broken, destroyed by her childhood trauma.

Wearing her sadness like a widow’s black vail.

Her never-ending tears often fell and she was comfortless.

She’d hibernate for hours or even days.

Ever marinating in her self-doubt and loathing.

She occasionally contemplated taking her life and it frightened me.

Some forms of darkness cannot allow any light in, like wooden shutters closed during the daylight.

She couldn’t love me, she wasn’t capable.

So I loved for us both but that wasn’t unsustainable and was infinitely exhausting.

It took a tole on my soul and health, nearly destroying me in the process.

Her sudden and unexpected infidelities ended us and our ten year relationship.

Which shockingly hollowed me out inside.

Hard lessons learned, no matter how much you love someone, you cannot make them love themselves, let alone you…

-aaa

Brushfire’s Hellfire

Flames lick and engulf all around them.

Consuming all, as every object is, fuel.

Lifetimes of riches saved, stored, and destroyed in an instant.

Huge write, black gray tendrils rise in every direction from the commotion.

Smoke choked ash falls, as a rainfall of death.

All covered, ghostly-white grays and blacks.

Smells of smoke dirt and all the melted.

Lungs hurt and strain, with stinging and coughing.

Eyes burn and tear up in a foggy haze of the charred aftermath.

Many of the bravest humans, rush toward and into the flames to save all they can.

Brief victories aren’t celebrated huge losses mount up.

How long will this hell last when will the fire’s hearty appetite be satisfied???

One house more? One more teddy bear erased?

Many people suffer the grief of egregious loss and its endless misery.

The evil of hopelessness tries to set in.

Waiting among all evacuated, pondering and praying over losing everything.

The hopeful wish, with their might, for a pouring rain to douse all of the hellfire…

Diluted

I’m

Diluted

Like

Adding

Water

To

A

Sauce.

Diminished

Reduced

Less

Or

Watered

Down.

That’s

What

Narcissistic

People

Do

To

Our

Spirit.

Leave

Them

Where

You

Find

Them…

-aaa

Words Serve

Words serve a purpose

Purpose to move people

People who are everything in the world

World wide peace is what I want to see

Seeing is truly believing in actions

Actions display our true nature

Nature is what doing what feels right

Right is the opposite of wrong

Wronging others is not an option

Options are one of many choices

Choices made determine direction

Direction is how we go about moving

Moving towards our lives desires

Desires are powerful wants

Wants are what we’d like in life

Life is what we make of it until its end

End of this poem…

-aaa

Entropy Works

Through chaos comes organization.

Everything settles back down to normal.

Sit still, quietly for a moment, you’ll see it.

Everything happens for a reason, you just need to be far away enough to see it.

Don’t worry if you can’t see the road ahead it goes in the right direction.

Be the change, light the way for everyone in the future.

Be the spark that ignites them all, aflame.

Show everyone that change is the key to everything and staying stagnant is death.

As you grow, your world will grow, and your life will grow.

Be, that, change…

-aaa

FOWC With Fandango

Today’s Word of the day is Captivated.

FOWC with Fandango — Captivated

She was Beauty

She stood before me wearing nothing but her gumption.

I was captivated by her beauty.

My eyes had a heart attack.

I forced a gulp back down my throat.

I quickly replaced the breath that was taken away.

She was here for me now, as vulnerable as anyone could ever be.

My heart leaped in my chest.

Being a poet, and an author, I tried to find the right words to say.

The only words I could put together were “you are beauty” as I stuttered them aloud…

-aaa

Word of the Day

Today’s Word of the day is  Incense.

The Church

Chapel of the Holy Cross, Sedona, AZ
Chapel of the Holy Cross, Sedona, AZ

The fragrant memory of incense filled the church.

Red lit candles of prayer dotted the tables in front of an enormous alter.

A large figure of Christ with an enormous window showing the beautiful desert outside.

Quiet whispers of person’s thoughtful well wishes for others.

Some people call this place God’s House.

The vibe is definitely warm with much softer light and volume in between services.

The confessional rooms vacant with no light on the door or line of awaiting sinners.

The view from this house of God is stunning as it was built into a mountain.

The flora and fauna of Sedona painted desert share their beauty.

Truly, the nicest church I’ve ever visited.

-aaa

She Wanted…

She wanted to be pleased

So I obliged her.

She wanted to feel safe

So I protected her.

She wanted to feel love

So I loved her.

She wanted to be taken

So I took her.

She wanted to be excited

So I excited her.

She wanted to be delighted.

So I delighted her.

She wanted appreciation

So I appreciated her.

She wanted to relaxation

So I relaxed her.

She wanted to be desired

So I desired her.

She wanted to be admired

So I admired her.

She wanted peace

So I calmed her.

She wanted to share vulnerability

So I trusted her.

She wanted to be kissed

So I kissed her.

She wanted to be missed

So I missed her.

She wanted to belong

So I held her.

She wanted to be strong

So I strengthened her.

She wanted to be free

So I freed her…

-aaa

Three Things Challenge # M701

Three Things Challenge #M701 | pensitivity101

Today’s three things challenge our poem to include one more of the following words:

ASHEN
PALE
COLOURLESS

Death’s Ashen Face

Her face was colorless and pale.

Her skin, ashen and cool to the touch.

She lay in the box her eyes were closed.

Her hands perfectly folded on her chest.

Hands folded softly together as if in prayer.

They’d never move from that position.

Her face and body were gauntly thin.

The disease that took her life took the rest of her long before.

She had been my favorite aunt, godmother, and most important person in my life.

Now, all that remained was an empty shell

Of the person I had known from birth to age 32.

It wasn’t enough time not nearly enough.

And all I have now are memories.

I have registered several angry complaints with Universe.

But alas, nothing has or will change, she’s gone.

The funny thing about grief, it never ever ends.

You just integrate it into your everyday life.

These nearly 20 years she’s been gone still hurt like it was yesterday.

Some of the best parts of my heart are and soul buried with her to this day…

-aaa

BFF, BEF Or BFE

You displace your anger and frustration all over me. Why? Does it make you feel better to kick me in the teeth.

Apparently it does. Whatever eases you, my friend.

We’ve known each other now for how long? Thirty-nine years and you never change.

It’s always what you feel and what you know And anything falls outside of that bothers you, including me.

So rather than let me be me it bothers you. So you have to cut me down and make me change into something to conform and contort into another shape.

You label me a sheep among wolves. Do you really know me that well?

I’ve opened up to you and told you more than I told almost anyone. And yet, you still hold me in such contempt.

I think it would hurt me except, I just don’t fit into the mold that you want

Yeah, you try to group me in with all these other morons. Because it makes it easier for you more palpable.

You get me angry to get me to react. That’s totally gaslighting. Then you get on my case for being mad.

I wonder if you even know that you’re doing it? I don’t think you do I think you do it unconsciously.

Well, I’m sure after this exchange we won’t talk for weeks, or months, or ever. But I will never standby and let you trash me ever again…

-aaa

Vertigo

I stand and I fall

The world is moving violently

I close my eyes

Everything is still moving

I feel myself taken by it

Caught up in the endless motion

It’s almost like I feel this wave

Taking me away and whirling me about

Nothing is still

Looking in the mirror I appear to be moving

Everything takes on a violent spin

All I can do is lay down and take it all in

Even in the quiet darkness

Everything is still moving though I lay still

Drifting to thankful sleep

The dizziness haunts my dreams…

-aaa